Hi, I’m from Spain.
I’ve been following this forum (and the previous one) intermittently for some years now. I found it through reddit. I remember there was a sub-forum that dealt with PSSD. Am I wrong? I cant find it now.
What is your current age, height, weight?
I’m 30 years old and I started taking paroxetine 20mg a day (I’m not 100% sure but I think that was the dose) at age 16. I discontinued it at age 18 and started again at age 19 until 20. At 24 I started taking it again and finally got off it for good at 28. So I’ve been on this drug for about 8 to 9 years. I always tapered it off.
I was prescribed this drug for OCD and Generalised Anxiety.
I’m not sure when I first noticed the side effects because I was a virgin back then. At 17 I lost my virginity and I had problems reaching the orgasm but it was just a couple of nights so it could be anxiety. However, later, at 20, I remember that my girlfriend would suck my penis and I wouldn’t feel much around the frenulum, which is supposed to be a very sensible area. I cannot be sure this has happened because of the paroxetine, since before having someone sucking my penis, I had never thought about that penile anaesthesia. Things got worse with time though. I always thought that I didn’t “feel” enough when having sex, although this was the first time I had a girlfriend with whom to regularly practice. At 28, after being without a girlfriend for some years, having only casual sex, I decided to stop the paroxetine, since I would have sex with girls that appealed a lot to me sexually but I wouldn’t be able to reach orgasm and I wouldn’t feel almost genital pleasure at all. After being off it for almost a year, I had sex again and I didn’t feel anything, just pain. Now, I don’t know what is happening, I don’t know if it’s the PSSD or my anxiety and depression but I rarely get horny at all. I can watch lots of pictures and videos of hot girls having sex and oftentimes I don’t feel a thing. It’s been like three years since I last had pleasure masturbating on a regular basis. Usually, the orgasms are not very intense.
So I still have some penile anaesthesia in the frenulum and I have almost no libido and my orgasms when masturbating feel very weak. My semen is ok and my penis looks like always, so I don’t have problems there.
Loss of Libido / Sex Drive
Loss of Morning Erections
Loss of Spontaneous Erections
Loss of Nocturnal Erections
Inability or Difficulty to Ejaculate / Orgasm
Reduced Sperm Count / Motility
Emotional Blunting / Emotionally Flat
Difficulty Focusing / Concentrating
Memory Loss / Forgetfulness
Stumbling over Words / Losing Train of Thought
Slurring of Speech
Lack of Motivation / Feeling Passive / Complacency
Extreme Anxiety / Panic Attacks
Severe Depression / Melancholy
Penile Tissue Changes (narrowing, shrinkage, wrinkled)
Penis curvature / rotation on axis
Testicular Shrinkage / Loss of Fullness
Genital numbness / sensitivity decrease
Gynecomastia (male breasts)
Dry / Dark Circles under eyes
Persistent Fatigue / Exhaustion
Stomach Pains / Digestion Problems
Constipation / “Poo Pellets”
Vision - Acuity Decrease / Blurriness
Tinnitus (ringing or high pitched sound in ears)
Increased hair loss
Lowered body temperature
Other (please explain)
I have not undertaken any treatments to recover. It’s difficult for me to talk about this issue.
My hormones are ok.
I have a slight caso of short frenulum and I think it might have to do with the loss of sensitivity in the frenulum when erect and with some genital pain when having sex but urologist say it’s ok. This condition also makes me fear I end up injuring my penis when having sex, since the glans curves a little bit because of the tight foreskin (just a little) and I fear I end up suffering micro-injuries and develop peyronie’s disease.
This whole situation takes away my confidence and I’ve been avoiding sex for years. Lately, the few times I ended up having sex I was quite reticent at first because of this. I’m wasting my sex life.
I would like to know how to get back to normal, if that’s possible. I thought there was a specific subforum here for people suffering from PSSD but I don’t see it. I’m almost certain it used to be here.