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Hi there @mdshrinkgirl
I’m sorry that you deleted your self penned version of Alanis Morissette’s Ironic. I appreciated it and I’m sure that others did too.
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I reworked an Alanis morisette song. Awfully cathartic and I think pretty good if a bit sad. Thanks for taking a listen from a sad transgirl
Pretty boy finally turned the page
After 40 years it was her coming of age
A little calm moment amid decades of rage
And a taste of triumph that set the stage.
And it’s poetic justice, don’t you think
It’s like coming out and losing your hair
Wrong diagnosis, but they just didn’t care
So we went the route of Propecia and despair.
I never knew god existed.
I don’t go out cause because I think people stare.
My face is ruined, but hey I got great hair.
I didn’t get a new ID so the club won’t let me in there.
And as my fake eyebrows melt I think
A bottle would be fair.
And it’s poetic justice don’t you think.
It’s like coming out and then losing your hair
Wrong diagnosis, but they just didn’t care
So we went the route of Propecia and despair
Whoever thought God existed?
Life has a funny way of giving you
unneeded treatments till you cry and lie down.
Salvation is poison-laced.
Life has a funny way of killing your plans
to be a sweet, funny, pretty trans girl.
Oh god what a fucking waste.
Finasteride, for telogen effluvium
5 alpha reductase really did me in.
Now my eyelids slip away and my skin just sags.
Maybe I’ll wear a covid mask,
Or maybe a brown paper bag.
And it’s poetic justice don’t you think?
A little too perfect
Yeah I really do think
It’s like coming out and then losing your hair
wrong diagnosis, but they just didn’t care
So we went the route of Propecia and despair
Why’d I buy so much mascara?
Tears on pics I’ll never be.
Is it just for kicks what God did to me.
The best punchline in need of a joke.
Am I paying a karmic fine
Or is it a goddamn hoax.
And it’s poetic justice don’t you think
just a little too perfect
yeah i really do think.
It’s like coming out and then losing your hair
Wrong diagnosis, but they just didn’t care
So we went the route of Propecia and despair
And should I just smash the mirror?
Life has a funny fucking way of sticking it to you
Life has a funny fucking way of breaking you down
Breaking you down.
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Thank you
Really? I had thought about it and just wasn’t sure if people wanted to hear much from a trans girl…
Despite the fact that most of the participants here are cis men we all have a commonality, irrespective of our individual differences. You definitely add to that.
Thanks. I can’t begin to tell you how much I appreciate that. I hope things are ok with you. Kind of struggling. I’m struggling with discovering that like… at first estrogen was helping with desired physical and emotional effects but now things are going in the opposite direction. I’ve been facing ostracism from my own community who accuse me of making things up and being a transphobe. I get it. Marginalized communities like to and need to feel cohesive and these days when there are greater threats this is even more true. But I was thinking my observations might be pertinent. Of course I have no idea if the estrogen is actually causing the issue or if this condition is just so powerful that it can ignore freaking 2mg estrogen, buccal, 3 times per day. The affirming care docs don’t do anything except yeah question if my mental state is compatible with attempting to transition. I want to try to cycle with Lupron and Bicalutamide but might have to spend some time in Mexico for this. And yeah this seems like a huge crap shoot. This is brutal.
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