So I’m actually from the PSSD from. I’ve had PSSD since 2016, and it has improved a degree over the years, both with time and with supplementation. Before this week, I would say I was around 50-70% normality, sexually, the majority of the time.
However, in the last few weeks, I stupidly began using poppy seed tea (basically opium tea) recreationally, mostly as a release from the stress of life and this hellish condition. I was aware of potential addiction and hormonal effects of opiates, but kept my use to 1-2x per week.
The first few times I used the tea, it actually boosted my libido a lot (surprisingly, given that opiates usually suppress T). This is probably related to dysfunction in my mesolimbic dopaminergic pathway. However, it did make it harder to maintain an erection and near impossible to cum (as expected).
This last Tuesday, I dosed tea again, but this time there wasn’t much euphoria or libido increase. I chose to end the “high” early by taking Naltrexone, an opiate antagonist (antagonized mu and kappa receptors). I took this about 7 hours after dosing. I woke up feeling fearful and sweaty, and did not sleep very well the rest of the night.
Note: this is the 2nd or third time I ended the high early with seed tea. The half life is so long that I’d rather enjoy the effects for several hours, then cut them off as not to depress my testosterone and raise my prolactin for too long.
Anyway, when I woke up Wednesday morning, I experienced much, much worse sexual dysfunction than is typical. I could barely get it up with excess manual stimulation. It seemed slightly better later that afternoon.
The last two mornings, I have tried to jack off, and the function is even worse. I am basically completely impotent. I can’t even achieve a full erection with manual stimulation - just beyond a chub - which immediately will be lost when stimulation is stopped.
Since Wednesday morning, I have been plagued with anxiety and hardly eating / able to focus on anything but this. I know this may be contributing to the problem at this point (excess cortisol lowers T), but I don’t think it’s entirely maintaining the dysfunction.
I fucked up. I don’t know where to turn. I’m losing it. My anxiety is horrible. I already take daily benzos and cannot take more.
Should I take anything? Should I just stop jacking off for a few weeks and try to relax? Should I take ashwagandha for the stress?
PLEASE help. This is my worst nightmare come true. PSSD already left me with horrible symptoms (neurological, sexual, and anxiety), but complete impotence on top of this might drive me to the brink of insanity/suicide.
Any suggestions would be much welcomed. I just need someone who understands try to calm me down and approach this with a level head (mine is anything but level).