You’re not weak. Anxiety and depression is a perfectly normal reaction to this circumstance.
You are an individual exposed to a vile situation completely unjustifiably all because big pharma would prefer to make some profit than take a medicine off the market that ruins lives.
Personally I wouldn’t bank on a recovery at this point unfortunately, I did a similar thing when I first got PFS and eventually I had to just accept it wasn’t going to happen.
Stay healthy, look after your mental health and try to accept this new state as normal would be my best advice. Its not the end of the world and there are still plenty of things to enjoy in life presuming your emotional blunting isn’t that bad.
Good luck mate, my heart aches for people who have to go through this.