On way to recovery since stopping fin in Feb 2012

Where are you from (country)? UK

How did you find this forum (Google search – if so, what search terms? Via link from a forum or website – if so, what page? Other?)

What is your current age, height, weight? 37, 180cm,

What specific drug did you use (finasteride, dutasteride, saw palmetto, isotretinoin/Accutane, fluoxetine, sertraline, citalopram, leuprorelin, etc…)? Finasteride

What dose did you take (eg. 1 mg/day, 1 mg every other day etc.)? 1mg/per day

What condition was being treated with the drug? Hair loss

For how long did you take the drug (weeks/months/years)? over 1 month lees than 2 months

Date when you started the drug? Early January 2012

Date when you quit the drug? Early February 2012

Age when you quit? 27

How did you quit (cold turkey or taper off)? Cold turkey

How long into your usage did you notice the onset of side effects? over a month

What side effects did you experience that have yet to resolve since discontinuation?

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Sexual
[X] Loss of Libido / Sex Drive
[X] Erectile Dysfunction - Somewhat better over the years
[ ] Complete Impotence
[X] Loss of Morning Erections - Somewhat better over the years
[X] Loss of Spontaneous Erections
[X] Loss of Nocturnal Erections - Somewhat better over the years
[ ] Watery Ejaculate
[X] Reduced Ejaculate
[ ] Inability or Difficulty to Ejaculate / Orgasm
[ ] Reduced Sperm Count / Motility

Mental
[X] Emotional Blunting / Emotionally Flat
[X] Difficulty Focusing / Concentrating
[ ] Confusion
[ ] Memory Loss / Forgetfulness
[ ] Stumbling over Words / Losing Train of Thought - Mostly resolved
[ ] Slurring of Speech
[X] Lack of Motivation / Feeling Passive / Complacency
[ ] Extreme Anxiety / Panic Attacks
[X] Severe Depression / Melancholy
[X] Suicidal Thoughts

Physical
[X] Penile Tissue Changes (narrowing, shrinkage, wrinkled)
[ ] Penis curvature / rotation on axis
[ ] Testicular Pain
[X] Testicular Shrinkage / Loss of Fullness
[X] Genital numbness / sensitivity decrease
[ ] Weight Gain
[ ] Gynecomastia (male breasts)
[ ] Muscle Wastage
[ ] Muscle Weakness
[ ] Joint Pain
[ ] Dry / Dark Circles under eyes

Misc
[ ] Prostate pain
[ ] Persistent Fatigue / Exhaustion
[ ] Stomach Pains / Digestion Problems
[ ] Constipation / “Poo Pellets”
[ ] Vision - Acuity Decrease / Blurriness
[ ] Tinnitus (ringing or high pitched sound in ears)
[ ] Hearing loss
[ ] Increased hair loss
[ ] Frequent urination
[ ] Lowered body temperature

[ ] Other (please explain)

The recovery inflation

In your current menberstory you tick that you have ED, major depression, suicidal thoughts, shrinking penis, shrinking testicles and genital numbness. If you had your crash in 2012 then you have been suffering from these horrific symptoms for over 10 years. At the same time you write that you have been on the road to recovery after ten years.

Then you write that thanks to shilajit you feel almost normal again. As so often with recovery stories, I wonder how one can feel impotent, with shrunken, numb genitalia, depression and suicidal thoughts on the way to normality.

With the same symptoms you have (ED, major depression, suicidal thoughts, penis shrinkage and no drive) I feel absolutely horrible and want to end up my life. I would never, really never claim to be on the way to healing!

If even people with these terrible symptoms claim that they are on the way to recovery, then for me all the recovery stories are nonsense.

As a severely affected person and also some others who are doing very badly, I no longer dare to write about their bad condition and their suffering with this disease when everyone is talking about their incredible recoveries.

Am I an oddball because I see normal life without depression and suicidal thoughts, with a zest for life, a healthy penis and normal sexuality, or have I misunderstood something again.

"I am back on this forum after a few years, almost near back to normal.

The thing that helped most was Shilajit, my libido is back and head feeling
itchy again.

People on this forum should do some research Shilajit, it boosts testosterone
and also DHT. It has about 80 different minerals, the one I got from UK comes
from Northern Pakistan."

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