I’m going through an absurd hell. I am all day at home, from the bed to the chair or sofa. I lost all my independence and self-sufficiency. Nobody cares about us or how much we suffer.
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Try to stop you from what?
What are your current symptoms, man? Are you working or able to? If you’re able to physically work like a desk job, I would do it, man. If not, depression from this disease will eat you up.
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try to live in reality and not in fantasy world. its not possible to revenge. and revenge is never a good thing. so focus on yourself. focus on your ability to help this community ! hang in man
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@Demon Just try hang on mate, I’ve been at home a year and a half now, crippled with depression, anxiety and OCD along with all the physical symthoms such as fatigue, visual snow, blurred vision 24/7. I will admit I can dig myself into a dark hole mentally and I have been extremely down the last week or so thinking all sorts of things and about what I should be doing and where I should be in life.
I’m still living with my parents at 21 and to be honest, could be here for a long time, I don’t really know as I find it extremely hard to think correctly and manage every little task myself, I want to but I can’t think right, I don’t know why.
As I said everything just seems extremely hard even when I try my best, washing clothes, cooking, even thinking of what to eat is so hard, basic things that a normal person can do, nevermind the thought of trying to get an education and a decent job, its a constant battle with my mind. But you know what, at least I’m alive.
For all I know some people who have great jobs might be dead at 40, while others might only be well enough to even start having a proper life at that age, you never know how lifes going to play out.
No matter who tells you that what your doing with your life is wrong, not fitting into the social norms, those people just don’t understand and it’s as simple as that, people need to worry about themselves and stay out of other peoples business, nobody knows what’s going on inside peoples head and no matter what they’re doing or not, as long as they’re not dead or harming anyone, that’s the main thing because if you’re alive, you can always try better yourself.
What I’m trying to say is all you can do is try your best. I’m sure your loved very much and no matter what your doing now, they certainly wouldn’t want you dead, please hold on, if you’re at the lowest point in life, things can only go up from there, I wanted to try get across that my situation is a mess too, your certainly not alone in that regard and are probably even able to do more than I am, but we must keep hanging on my friend. Stay strong and never give up 
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Hey man, what is your living condition like now? Do you live alone on disability or what? Is it mental or physical barriers preventing you from working, even if only part time?
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Can you do basic maths, study financial charts on a computer screen or read? I can give you something to do that might provide a purpose and an opportunity now and for the future.
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@Demon you may not issue threats here.
I have edited your posts to remove the threats. Do not post in that way.
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I’m at home all day. I can not do anything. Nothing at all. I can’t train. I can not go out. I can’t drive. Due to severe physical symptoms. I literally feel like a terminally ill person.
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My symptoms are severe joint instability, joints that break and are hypermobile, anesthesia of the whole body, osteoporosis, and a thousand problems. All caused by the crash with Vit. D3 which is an Aromatase inhibitor. I fucked my ER and estrogen / progesterone.
It’s a word to think about yourself … I’m too sick
Maybe going to somewhere else will help. Just go out to nature and wonder around. Much better than staying at home especially in this hot summer days.
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Vit d3 ? Your first crash happened because of something else, i remember it. Dod you had a second crash because of vit D? Vit D is good for us, hmm its weird.
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No, only one…then crash continue without a reason
Vit d3 have kill me
Is anyone caring for you? Are you living with someone in your family? As far as joint instability and hypermobility, have you already broken a bone or injured yourself?
Not trying to ask tons of questions, but maybe we can explain your experience better so somehow, somebody may can help.
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Its NOT true. @Axolotl, @lowe2sucks, @onlyhope etc, ALL worsed.
I crashed really bad whit dose massive 50.000UI. Never improved
Vitamin D is DANGERUOUS Is a IA (Aromatase inibitor).
Have you tried to go to the Mayo Clinic or something similar to it? Maybe a team of doctors can help you
me and you have some similarities man. you’re a year post crash and i’m 8 and a half months, and just getting worse. All we can do is develop a plan to give our body the best chance of healing and just stick to it. Easily typed, uncomprehensively hard to implement. Let’s start with the simple stuff, like swapping out hygiene products for more natural options, then looking at things like filtering your water, stopping drinking or tobacco use if you do it, cut out any fast foods, refined carbohydrates, things like that.
It may not be a cure, but it’s not going to hurt things.
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Before I get up in the morning the first thoughts I have are to kill myself through various methods. Does anyone else get this?
It’s so easy to let these thoughts ruminate while you’re laying there.
Today I tried to think of positive influences to break these thoughts. If I do this everyday it may break this cycle of suicide. Has anyone here had success into stopping these thoughts?
Is this behaviour suicidal ideation?
@Demon If you go in reddit https://www.reddit.com/ they have a forum section for suicide. You might find it useful speaking with others or asking for help there, people may have a different perspective or advice on coping with the mental issues. The general advice on here for suicide seems to be eat a clean diet, exercise, think positive and take some supplement. It’s practical advice but you probably need more emotional support and might be better seeking that elsewhere. Imagine you had children would you still want to take your own life or would you hold out for as long as possible.
There are other sections on there such as homelessness. I’ve posted a few times with some practical advice for the young guys who are struggling. It takes your mind of things and my words may help others. You’re a smart guy you could probably help a few people and take your mind of things. Of course I wouldn’t go there daily as it can be depressing to but a short visit a couple of times a week may help.
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