Hi my name lance and im 23 years old, late 2014 i noticed some hairloss i was starting to go to a NW2.
Since my hair has been something i’ve cared for my entire life and which i’ve felt is a part of my identity i felt i had to take action.
I started using finestride early 2015, i was in a relationship with a woman that i had been with for almost 4 years.
I’ve always been a very confident person boarderline narcissistic but in my own head i never was that to other people.
When i started taking finestride my libido kind of went up and down but since i took a pretty low dose i figured it was fine aslong as i diddnt lose my hair.
The relationship i was in was of the long distance kind, she was in our hometown and i was in college.
As the summer of 2015 came closer my libido had gotten lower and lower to the point that it was in a constant soft state even if it was hard.
I had never felt less of a man even tho i was tall, strong, muscualar, highly educated, i felt like a little boy.
My girlfriend went of to college after me and i have never been the needy kind but because of my insecurities i became that guy who looked who my girlfriends top snapchat friends were and who would become super sad and call her when i knew she was out.
I suffocated her love for me by acting like a little boy and eventually she left me, at the time i thought she was a cold bitch but now i see that it was all me.
I stoped the finestride in june but the sides diddnt get better they got worse.
I was in a deep low where i would just work and then sit at home feeling sorry for myself and stalking my ex, thinking about taking some pills and just falling to sleep one last time.
This was my life for about 3 months until it started improving (not libidowise), my dick was still soft and i could go weeks without jerking off even tho i forced myself to do it.
Then i started feeling sorry for myself and decided to get help. I diddnt go to a doctor and i diddnt talk to anyone i found a guy on youtube called doktor wayne dyer and i started watching his videos about how to get the most out of life and how not to look back.
I tried to live by his words and spend more time with family and friends and not think so much about everything else.
fast forward about 3 months more and my libido is starting to come back, it issnt in the sense that im horny all the time but once a week i could wake up with a semi hard dick.
Today and 11 months since i quit finestride im back to my old self, i’ve got a boner every morning and i jerk out 3 times a day just cause i can.
Im not saying that you should go read self help and you will be cured, im saying focus on yourself and let go of outcome.
I dont think i would be where i am today with my libido if i hadnt just stoped obsessing with it and let go.
My hair is still falling off but atleast i have a working penis.
This was my story, been thinking of writing something since i saw very few genuin recovery storys when i was reading about it at the peak of my problems.
Hope you enjoy and if not, dont hate.