My recent worsenings (alcohol and testosterone)

My best pfs period regarding erectile disfunction was from about the 20th of july to the 10th of august, i would say my erection was about 90% of what it was before the poison, i was quite able to control my ejaculation, my penis looked quite healthy and probably as big as before pfs, both resting and in erection, my only problem was low libido, i’d say about 50% of what it was before. One night around the 10th of august i drank a lot, i smoked weed, i didn’t vomit but i felt quite bad for about half an hour, than i got over it. From that day my erection worsened a little, particularly i can’t manage to fill the glans when in erection, i can fill it for just a moment and then blood flows away immediately, i started having ejaculation problems again, difficult for me to delay it, libido was almost the same i think, and my penis looks a bit more unhealthy, not too much but in a sensitive way for a pfs sufferer (now we are able too feel even the tiniest change in our condition). After this i can say quite surely that not being able to fill the glans or to keep the glans erected when in erection and premature ejaculation are related, when one problem disappeared the other did the same and they appeared at the same time. Actually last mondayi drank a lot and smoked weed again, and i also vomited that time, maybe it’s just my paranoia but i feel my problems worsened a little bit more after it, but don’t focus too much on it as i’m not sure it is only in my mind. Then 2 days ago and yesterday i used 100 mg of testim gel, today 50 mg, it improved a lot my libido almost like before the poison as it worsened my erectile disfunction, the more libido i feel the more impotent i am in these 3 days on testim gel. The other 2 problems, penis appearence and premature ejaculation don’t seem affected by testim. Now i feel exactly as i used too feel at the beginning of the nightmare, before taking any drug, that is to say high libido but completely impotent, maybe i’m just a little bit less impotent and with a better penis but with more premature ejaculation problems than at that time. My question is how can it be possible i jumped back to 2 years ago just using testim for 3 days??? What is happening in my body? ANd it’s even stranger because i used testosterone syringes (testim is a gel instead) and they either gave me great results for everything is concerned with sexual problems or nothing at all, not these strange results i had on testim. Actually after taking testosterone syringes after few days, 1, 2 or 3 maximum i used to take hcg too. Any clues or comments??