Dear fellow members of Propeciahelp, Post-Finasteride Syndrome sufferers, frustrated men:
I’m nearing what I believe to be an imminent full recovery from Erectile Dysfunction.
As previously posted, my diagnosis consisted of:
•hormonal damage due to use of Finasteride (Proscar, Propecia)
•penile artery blockage due to blunt trauma (exacerbated by Finasteride-induced androgen deprivation/vascular deterioration)¹
My treatment consisted of:
•a regimen of medication (Clomiphene Citrate, Testim, Arimidex)
•surgery to bypass the blocked penile artery (penile revascularization)
I began meds in November of 2009, I was operated on in May of 2010. I’m my doctor’s first Finasteride/Blockage case that has elected to do the surgery, perhaps the only one out there? It’s now a couple of months later and here is my prognosis:
My recovery, my arousal and vitality and feeling of being “sprung” came post-op at the 4/5 week mark when labs indicated Estrogen of 20.7. I believe this is the magic number, the twenties, if you will. Prior to surgery, I’d achieved that number once, but no improvement in function. All of a sudden, I was walking down the street, fantasizing about ex-girlfriends, and voila! I had an embarrassing erection. Not quite full out, but thick and alive. Enough to blush and want it to go away. But could I do it again? Over and over, just as I used to be able to fantasize in the shower or in class or at work and get an erection, it kept happening!
At this point, I was excited, but I still didn’t feel all there. Sex was prohibited during the surgery recovery period of six weeks, the erections were uncomfortable, foreign-feeling, the entire area still tender. But I felt like I was trending in the right direction. Would it work with a girl? Days later, the girl who I was seeing returned to town, and I got even more excited! Upon greeting her, hugging her, I felt the bulge. I was in that turned-on stage that I used to feel so easily. We went out, had a bite and a few drinks, went back to her place. Now, knowing that masturbating or having sex during the six week period could compromise result, I was determined not to do something stupid. You have no idea what will power I had to summon to prevent myself from inserting “just the tip.” I had to pull off my shorts to give my penis a release from the uncomfortable tension against my shorts. I kept parading around with my erection to my elation and her laughter. I made out with her, I hovered around her with it. It was staying up. At first, straight out, then it started climbing up. I came so close to putting it inside her, but we both knew better. I’d relax, hang out, then get excited again. Holy shit!!!
But this feeling of easy arousal only lasted a little more than a week.
What happened?
My Estrogen spiked to 67 upon being retested weeks later!
Why?
I believe because during my surgical recovery, I took Zinc for 11 days to treat a cold. This was a couple of weeks before the 20.7 Estrogen result. I had a hunch that Zinc would affect the Estrogen, but how much? Apparently a lot?!
Well, before I got the latest lab update indicated the spiked Estrogen, I was cleared to have sex at six weeks and change. Before surgery, I thought I could and would and ought to abstain longer. But I was backed up! I jerked off, I didn’t have the super easy mental/arousal, but it didn’t take much touching (and light touching, I might add–still quite sore), to get a full on erection and whoa! Yeah, I was backed up.
Later that night, I had sex. But I was armed with mega doses of Cialis (and later Viagra and combinations thereof). Doc told me to dose up as an insurance policy, to get confidence back as we continued to monitor the hormones. So now, on top of the required 6 month vascular maintenance dosage of a 1/4 Viagra pill nightly (25mg) or Cialis 5mg (both name brand), I’m popping 100mg of generic (or fake, I should say) Cialis, I’m popping an extra 100mg of Viagra (fake). And I’m starting to feel that blood hanging around all the time, feeling a bit more confident regardless of setting (day/night, sober/drunk) but not the same feeling as that wonderful 4/5 week mark. I’m thinking to myself, well, this isn’t perfect, but if it don’t get any better than this, it’s definitely better than before. I’m feeling as if the piping is definitely improved. The happy pills never worked this well before.
But I believe it CAN get better. I believe that the answer, at this point, is in getting Estrogen to stay around the 20 mark. I am presently awaiting direction from my doctor on altering the dosage of my meds. We had previously discussed upping Arimidex to 5 days a week (instead of 3). I popped an extra pill this week in anticipation of this being the next step. Boy I’d like to completely remove having to apply Testim gel daily, maybe that’s next? And it sure would be nice if eventually it could be the case that only excess estrogen needs to be attacked/inhibited. But I’m hopeful and optimistic that dialing the right cocktail of the present meds for a sustained period can bring back that 4/5 week mark and some stability to the situation.
I’ve been waiting and waiting and waiting before deciding to go online and post what’s been happening. I don’t want to seem like the fool that went and got operated on needlessly, I don’t want to publish premature results that fade away. But I feel like it doesn’t matter anymore, I want to share my entire ordeal and every little update in an ongoing format. It’s as much a cathartic process for me as it is a resource for people who have not explored the route I took.
That’s why I’ve decided to post today. And that’s why I’ve been slaving away at putting up my first ever blog:
www.penisrebirth.wordpress.com
I’ve decided to blog about the rollercoaster ride, no matter which turn it takes.
I’m going to be refining (and learning how to manage) the site as much as time permits. My goal is not to create a duplicate of Propeciahelp.com (like I even could! lol), but rather, to be a companion support site for newbies googling around for info on erectile dysfunction/finasteride. I want to raise awareness for the possibility of exploring both hormonal AND physical testing and treatment. Propeciahelp has been an amazing resource for me, has some incredibly dedicated and brilliant posters, and is an invaluable forum (thank you Mew and everyone). But the focus is solely on Finasteride, and I’d like to take a different approach to documenting my story. I feel like I can have a forum where I post my own, unique road and battle and recovery. Complete with quick posts on sexual encounters, progress from situation to situation, more on-the-fly anecdotes. A working journal, flaws, warts and all.
As such, I want to share my blog with you and hope you’ll follow and root for me and explore the full extent of diagnostic methods and treatments available out there. Visit penisrebirth.wordpress.com, e-mail me, tell me what you think, what I could add, and share any of your stories that might be different than just the Finasteride angle.
Thank you! Updated labs attached, fyi.
companion key to the attached lab history chart file:
*approximately 3-4 months after quitting Finasteride
**over a year after quitting Finasteride
*** Cortisol was high during this round of labs (only time tested)
**** Zinc 50mg daily (a known Estrogen Inhibitor) was taken to combat a cold for 11 days (May 27th thru June 6); last dose was taken just over a week before the 20.7 E result.
June 12th is when excitability/improvement was really noticed in person; fantasy/spontaneity observed days before (~4-5 wk mark)
History of Finasteride & Side Effects:
• I used Finasteride (Proscar/1.25 mg) daily for 8 years
• I experienced the beginning of major side effects in mid 2007 (loss of morning erections/ability)
• I quit the drug in late 2008, symptoms of ED, itchy hives, exhaustion persisted
• Looking back, I could sense that I had lost just a little bit of that super easy spontaneous arousal as early as 1-2 years into Finasteride usage
¹I do not think it’s inconceivable that Finasteride completely introduced the physical arterial blockage, but this is at least the official diagnosis. The debate is irrelevant at this point, as most all of us agree that Finasteride is bad. Question is, do you KNOW if you have a blockage? And if you DO have a blockage, what are you doing about it? Are you only treating your hormones??