Hey everyone, I am going to try to keep this as short as possible, because this is a five year story.
(early 2006) Ok, I was 16 years old and was having problems with acne, it wasn’t even bad, but I really wanted it gone. So my mother said I was a bit obsessed and the doctor put me on 20mg of seroxat (paxil) to calm me and stop me from obsessing, weeks later I was put on Roaccutane, I was delighted that the dermatoligist put me on the stuff, how I would regret it. I noticed a about 2 weeks after taking it, less happy in myself, less social, I would come in from school and I would collapse on the sofa with pure fatigue and tiredness, but I thought these are just the side effects of the tablets, so I continued taking them into the summer when we had school holidays. I noticed myself becoming bigger, like more musclier, I had big body builders chest on me, i did a small bit of weight lifting, but I don’t think it did that.
Anyway, I remember one day my nose bled extremely bad 3 time in the one day from the side effects. These tabs are strong, believe me. So I continued my 3 month course, my friends hadn’t seen me in about 2 months, when they seen me, I could see they were stunned the way I changed pysically into a well fit physical guy, they even thought I was doing steroids. Oh and my hair dried and stuff too. So my 3 month course ended and I noticed the acne slightly coming back, so I was put on another 3 months. Same crap for another 3 months and I remember doing my exams and going to the doctor and saying that I have literally no concentration or motivation or lust or excitement anymore, as usual with doctors it was increase the dosage of seroxat and do more excercise.
And if I didn’t mention it, I was completely impotent when since I started the Roaccutane and I didn’t get a great feeling that should come with ejaculating or climxing, to be honest the feeling was like rubbing a dog(on the back) only less pleasurable, but I didn’t think I lived in a world where doctors will give you poison that does that kind of harm, and I thought it was temporary, we had no internet at the time to check up about any medication also. Anyway the last time I was on roaccutane was february 2008, I was in a strip club in spain and I was trying to test myself just to make sure it wasn’t me being nervous or something, strippers touching me in certain places and nothing happening, I knew something is wrong now for sure, I thought before that I would recover over time but now I had to tell someone.
So I went to the doctors, I think I was put on some viagra, but the viagra didn’t do anything. (all this time I am still on seroxat btw) So I was sent to a Urologist and did a few tests, All my blood tests was fine by the way, I was going to a psychotherapist to make sure It wasn’t in my head, pure bs and didn’t work, I’m sure you guys are sick of hearing “its in your head” all the time.
Went back to the urologist, I was put on caverject, you injected stuff into the penis with a needle, not easy to do and guess what, they didn’t work either, so anyway few months later got a test done where they put a dye in the arteries of the penis area to make sure there is no blockeges or leaks, I was gassed, but I don’t think I went to sleep (there is a reason I’m saying this). And the test showed no problems, also was done for semen and all that, so I can have kids if I want, and I can thank God. So he set me up for an operation where they tie some of the veins up around the penis area to make the blood flow better. I think its called a venus something, forgive me, Its not serious and it doesnt matter even if its not the problem, it also has a 25% success rate.
So its July 2009 and I have it done and I was put to sleep, so few hours later sent home and here is where things get weird. the next day I woke up early refreshed(something that never happened since 2006 before Roaccutane) and I also couldn’t believe what I woke up with, something which I never woke up to in a long time, yes, an erection. I was so happy, I got up and my mother seen me smiling, I couldn’t hold back the smiles. I was getting a few simultaneous unexpected erections through the day, that night I had to masturbate and the feeling was great.(Still on seroxat btw) Funny thing is as the next day came the urges got less and the erections and my mood.
Third day and I was back to square one, I was devastated, BUT, it gave me hope as I was trying the last year and a half to find a glimmer of hope. I wondered what the hell happened, if it was the operation, why would the effect wear away, so I said, maybe it was the medication they gave me, maybe it was the local anesthetic they gave me, maybe it did something to my brain, relaxed me or something.
Sorry for not mentioning earlier but if I took alcohol (before and after operation), lets say I took some on Saturday night, the next day, it would be easier to achieve an erection, i had a bit of a better feeling when ejaculating or orgasming, not great though, still better. So time went by, I went back to the urologist and I told him I was cured for a day or two and he said maybe the blood flowed out another way. Im sorry but I just find it hard to believe that a guy that is fine before medication, crap after, cure comes and go’s in 3 days and he is telling me that there is something wrong down there, I just didn’t think that.
So anyway, tried viagra again, and same really as before, I suppose from today, I have improved slightly in the last 2 years, I quit anti depressants last january and I never went back to the urologist. I went to my doctor and she put me on more anti depressants, she said its my nerves, and me being on seroxat for the last 4 fecking years, tried for a month, nah, seen a different doctor.I was also sent to a sex therapist for about 2 months, once a week, didn’t help as I thought, she said there is too much adreniline flowing through me, but yeah, didn’t help. I noticed I have lost a small bit of hair from the time I was on Roaccutane and I said is there anything that could be done, he seemed reluctant to give me the medication, yes, Proscar.
So I got it the next day and looked at it and noticed erectile dysfunction, I looked at all the bad attitude to this drug and knew I gotta stay away, But I seen this comment from a guy who is on this forum and he mentioned brain fog, looked it up and said to myself, thats 1 of my side effects, wow.
So I looked at his comment again and all the side efects he put in that comment made my heart beat because i had all of em, So he mentioned this site and I came, I noticed the side effects page and ticked a lot of boxes, emotional blunting, weight gain, etc etc. So I knew i was in the right place, I told the doctors about what i gathered, that, “roaccutane is related to the side effects of propecia”. It seems that they listen but don’t act on what your telling them, so anyway I found a Roaccutane forum where people had the same side effects, I seen people with the side effects before, the doctor knew they were harmful too.
So I seen a post from 1 of you guys the other day about the side effects of finisteride being similar to Accutane, and I knew I was definately in the right two places, although there is more traffic here, because the finisteride is a lot worse from what I can tell. So my current situation is that I want to go to a endochronologist and I have an appointment and the doctor also wants me to go to a…psychiatrist, I was fuming when he told me, but he said try it once, so we’ll see what happens.
I’ll probably post this on the Accutane forum and the Accutane post here on this forum in case people don’t see it, I was intrigued by the comments on that post by someone who quoted this pezzi guy from his book, that finesteride can help people that took accutaine/roaccutaine. And stunned by someone who said that they have gotten better from it too, Maybe I should have taken it when the doctor gave it to me, but i think i was wise and made the right decision THIS time, but we’ll see what happens with it. Hopefully there is a cure to all our mental and pysical side effects soon. Please post any suggestions or anything.
Thanks for reading.
Megadeth89