Yes, obsessive-compulsive disorder has always been apart of my life. Leading up to finasteride administration it was the worst it has ever been. The stress had compounded so bad I loss sense in time. Particularly in regards to appearance, perfection, and intolerance to uncertainty. OCD was the only reason I took finasteride because of caring about things that in the end do not matter (hair loss).
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Iām sorry to anyone reading this but I have made a fateful decision for tomorrow. To my family, friends, and ex girlfriend this was not your fault. I can no longer bear the pain of horrible anxiety and anhedonia. It makes life unlivable. To anyone else reading this do not follow in my footsteps. I lived a good live for 24 to 25 years. I tried the medical system and theyāre of no use. Blaming it all on anxiety when pharmaceuticals ruined my life. Wellbutrin is really what did me in.
Here are my final symptoms - Anhedonia, Flight or Fight anxiety and constantly having the need to walk around, sexual dysfunction, loss of libido, genital numbness, premature ejaculation, constant suicidal thoughts, watery and low volume semen, inconsistent sleep quality caused by anxiety and anhedonia, inability to concentrate due to 24/7 torture, loss of morning and nighttime erections. The list goes on. I wasnāt affected physically to my knowledge but thatās the least of my worries. Iām so sorry but my will power and quality of life is effectively zero. No human should ever experience PFS, PSSD, or PAS.
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It took me awhile to come to this conclusion but my life is effectively ruined. This decision could be considered selfish but Iām so exhausted and tortured I need a way out.
@tiredofthispostfin Stay strong, people here understand what you are going through - you are not alone and it hasnāt been a year since you crashed from Fin - many people recover within 1+ years.
You still have a future ahead of you, even if it doesnāt feel like this right now - Iām sure of it.
Anxiety and Anhedonia is torture - many of us understand - but itās not the end and even if it absolutely doesnāt feel like it right now, it can and will get better.
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I appreciate you coming back here and talking to me as well as henchmen. I fear though the damage from Hellbutrin is permanent. When I said my last goodbye to my ex a few weeks ago I felt nothing. Truly horrifying. Same goes for family members and friends. I have no interest anymore. I never truly understood anhedonia until I got it myself. Itās such a debilitating symptom that robs you of life.
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I saw a photo of myself as a child years ago yesterday and I almost burst into tears. I used to be so happy and enjoy life. Now I suffer immensely. I just canāt let go that I ruined my life taking Propecia & Wellbutrin. This biochemically induced depression on top of existing anxiety and depression is horrifying. I want relief.
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Before I go I just thought Iād remark on my life. From January 2025 to April 2025, I suffered immense depression and anxiety. I was at my worst mentally. When I took Propecia on May 24th, 2025 the nightmare began. It was the perfect shitstorm. On August 13th, Wellbutrin caused horrific anhedonia that has made me disconnected from my positive emotions. I simply cannot put into words how horrific my suffering is. My CNS has been on fire since April and Propecia threw me down a well of hell.
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Yeah I find that absolutely crazy too. This toxic poison should have been taken off the market after the first few times this happened, unbelievable it hasnāt been.
Hang in there though, Iāve started to see some improvements. Avoid all meds and supps.
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It sounds like you have akathisia, just as I did. The constant need for pacing and the indescribable horrible feeling it gives you. The unrelenting anxiety and doom. I hope you donāt go through with this and are able to give recovery a chance. I understand that life is not worth living in that state, but things can get better given time.
Yes, I developed it a month before getting PFS. Overtime it got increasing worse. Once I got anhedonia all hell broke loose as there is way to relieve it due to no physical comfort.
Iāve tried to cope but unfortunately Iāve been brought to deaths door. I really do fear death. It brings me great sorrow and the pain it will bring onto others. Self preservation does that. As humans, I feel we do anything in our power to survive.
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Update 10/17/2025
Still here somehow hanging to life. The Zuranolone just makes me unbalanced but the persistent anxiety and anhedonia continue. Any sort of relief from those symptoms would make me joyful. Makes me wonder if Benzos would even work if Zuranolone provides zero relief. I want this hell to end.
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Update 10/18/2025
Introduced 0.1 MG Clonidine last night. I could sleep and I think my heart stopped throbbing. Woke up to the same suicidal ideation and brain burning. Things are not looking good and my days are numbered.
glad youāre still here man. Hoping you find some relief. Here if you need to talk.
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Iāve woken up to Peyronieās disease. Left curvature of my penis. Goodbye cruel world.
To add to the mix and proof of this. Slight penile scarring on the backside of the shaft and penile burning sensation. True suicide fuel. I dream of jumping off a high building and never coming back.
@tiredofthispostfin Even if you have penile changes/shrinkage now, people who recover usually regain their size. - Slight Peyronieās is usually not an issue and given that youād recover, whatever is left already is decently treatable.
So focus on recovery and donāt worry about your genitals, while weāre stuck in PFS we canāt really make use of them anyhow.
Stay strong my fellow sufferer.
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Update 10/24/2025
I finished my last course of Zuranolone. No improvements to my symptoms largely due to the fact I have anhedonia and donāt respond to substances very well. Iāve discontinued Spravato as it just makes me feel worse. Probably wonāt return back to this site unless I have good news to share. Hope to recover or find relief soon.
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