Plzrecover, sorry to see you joined our club recently. I hope you feel better soon.
I had OCD that developed more in college (some after I started finasteride actually) and I was prescribed Ritalin etc for awhile but like a lot of people, after awhile it didn’t seem to help as much, but the situation wasn’t as bad either, so I stopped taking it. I’m just writing this as a preface - to b clear we don’t have the exact same symptoms.
When I crashed I had tons of stress and panic, and found it very very hard to calm myself down. I had some abnormal salivary cortisol tests from this time but I don’t recall the details. With time it has gotten better for sure, but it is still bad compared to “normal” people I think (about 3 years since I crashed.)
Interestingly, I also have the same catchy song problem. In German I think it’s called Ohrwurm (ear worm) and what I noticed was that, my brain would keep stretching out the melody and adding more chord changes and flourishes until t was a real mess. I hated it but it was hard to stop.
The “slight pressure” thing is very familiar, I felt like my head was kind of empty and pressurized at times. I think having sex or masturbating made it mich worse. Luckily I don’t get that problem much anymore.
Also after I have sex (don’t get too jealous guys it happens like once a month) I also have a problem with my eyes! They like to sort of unfocus. Like they feel exhausted from trying to focus too much (which is not the case.)
Also I don’t know if this happens to you guys, but I now get migraines about 5 times a year. It starts with weird colors and lines in field of vision, then difficulty reading or seeing what’s on a screen. Then horrible pain for 3-5 hours, and then a headache in the pained spot for a couple days. I went 34 years having 0 total migraines, then I quit propecia and now it’s an every other month thing. Luckily a lot of people have these and coworkers and friends are very understanding. Just weird that it started because of PFS (in my judgment).
On days when I had the “head pressure” or after masturbating, I would find it very hard to focus on any kind of technical work. I would just unconsciously procrastination that work and focus on simpler tasks at work. Very strong distinction. Also, I will find myself typing the wrong word or leaving words out a lot, like a whole lot–needing to review emails several times to avoid dumb but critical mistakes. It happens when I talk too.
The message I want to send is that brain fog definitely gets better. The problem of your head feeling like an inflated balloon, resolved for me. I am still worse at reading maps and hearing driving directions than I was before I crashed, but it’s gotten better. I can do math again! Don’t panic you just have to give it time. I believe weight lifting helped, maybe SAM-e, and melatonin or Benadryl was good for skewing problems (which were hellish the first year or so.) I really don’t want you to get discouraged by brain fog because that is one thing that for sure got better (for other commenters too.)
I visited the forum because my dick feels a bit pins and needles like it used to 3 years ago. So somethings can get worse again–but I have barely exercised in a whole year so I think that could be part of it. It will get better eventually I’m sure, or it won’t and I’ll have to get used to it. I just try to view our situation as having survived a pretty bad car accident- we look mostly normal (not paralyzed) but life can be pretty hard each day, there has been a lot of pain and loss but no one can see it. (My nonstop urges to commit suicide faded after about 9 months and I think some car accident survivors have those too.)
So please, since you are “new”, hang in there, don’t get discouraged, see if any vitamins or exercise works for you – and give it plenty of time but don’t obsess over it - find a good therapist if you can, a lot of it gets better and there is really good research being done. And enjoy NYC I love visiting there!