Been in some time of ssri since I was 7 in 2008 to 2014
. I wish I knew what they could do to me.
I never had morning wood or nocturnal erections but I had no problems getting erections during this time.
I took lexapro from 2014 to 2018
No morning erections
No noturnal erections
Not normal teenager erections ( difficult to get)
I had sex 3 times during this time and I had no trouble getting it up I would have a ranging hard on and after cumming I would be hard again after some minutes
It didn’t bother me because I didn’t knew it was normal to have morning or noturnal erections
From the start of the year I started taking pristiq, lamictal and seroquel to sleep.
Again no nortunal or morning erections but I had no difficulties having an erection. Did not have sex this year. Erections were difficult to get than a normal teenager that’s for sure.
I started a test steroid cycle from February to june. Erections improved or stayed the same but libido improved.
Tried to restart my natty test but I got ed and went back on test. My erections came back strong
Here where the shit starts
I had some gyno from that cycle so I started some protocol to get rid of it. It was letrozol 2.5 mg, 1 mg arimidex and 60 mg nolvadex while taking 300 mg test for 75 days. I was so stupid I didn’t know i was ending my life wtf. Also took accutane for like 14 days at 20-40 mg then stopped. I don’t remember when I started having erectyle disfunction but I would say a week maximum after starting The “protocol” that would end my life.but I would still be able to get 100% hard by hand stimulation and I had sure once my e2 is In range I would get my erections Back( stupid me maybe if I had stopped soon enough)…The problems is before having my e2 in range a lot of things happened that’s fucked me.
I stopped pristiq and lamictal cold turkey and took one invega 100 mg injection. This gave me even worse ed after I had my test and e2 in range. I could only get 70 hard by stimulation.
I thought it was the invega injection and that it would get better after a while, but I was wrong. It’s more than 110 days off the injection and my erectyle disfunction has only gotten worse I cannot get hard even by hand stimulation. I don’t know what happenned to me. Maybe a mix of pssd, anti aromatase inhibitor, invega and acutanne. I’m not sure what happened I just know something happened because all my hormones are normal and my dick doesn’t even respond to Hand stimulation.
I am 18 years old and after reading all this in here I made the decision I won’t live anymore this way I’m killing myself this week. I had a future which was destroyed by drugs and me.You guys are strong I’m not I cannot live impotent. This is it. I had a life a future now I don’t have anything and have to end my life because of circumstances. I’m sad but this has to be done I can’t endure living like this anymore
I want to live I want to have a future but not like this. Why this happened to me? Why did I took that fucking “anti gyno protocol” ? I’m sure this is what contributaded the most because the invega injection is gone and pssd and accutane severe problems are rare( and I only took for 1-2 weeks). I destroyed myself and I cannot live like this. I just wanted to go back in time… what the hell man… why why