Life destroyed by stupid choice

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How did you find this forum (Google search – if so, what search terms? Via link from a forum or website – if so, what page? Other?)

What is your current age, height, weight? 31

What specific drug did you use (finasteride, dutasteride, saw palmetto, isotretinoin/Accutane, fluoxetine, sertraline, citalopram, leuprorelin, etc…)?
What dose did you take (eg. 1 mg/day, 1 mg every other day etc.)?
1 mg
What condition was being treated with the drug?
Hair loss
For how long did you take the drug (weeks/months/years)?
6 weeks
Date when you started the drug?
4 February 2022
Date when you quit the drug?
12 March 2022
Age when you quit?
How did you quit (cold turkey or taper off)?
Cold turkey
How long into your usage did you notice the onset of side effects?
5 weeks
What side effects did you experience that have yet to resolve since discontinuation?

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[ x] Loss of Libido / Sex Drive
[ x] Erectile Dysfunction
[ x] Complete Impotence
[ x] Loss of Morning Erections
[ x] Loss of Spontaneous Erections
[ x] Loss of Nocturnal Erections
[ x] Watery Ejaculate
[ x] Reduced Ejaculate
[X ] Inability or Difficulty to Ejaculate / Orgasm
[X ] Reduced Sperm Count / Motility

[ x] Emotional Blunting / Emotionally Flat
[ x] Difficulty Focusing / Concentrating
[ x] Confusion
[ x] Memory Loss / Forgetfulness
[ x] Stumbling over Words / Losing Train of Thought
[X ] Slurring of Speech
[ x] Lack of Motivation / Feeling Passive / Complacency
[ x] Extreme Anxiety / Panic Attacks
[ x] Severe Depression / Melancholy
[ x] Suicidal Thoughts

[ x] Penile Tissue Changes (narrowing, shrinkage, wrinkled)
[ x] Penis curvature / rotation on axis
[ x] Testicular Pain
[ ] Testicular Shrinkage / Loss of Fullness come and go
[ x] Genital numbness / sensitivity decrease
[X ] Weight Gain
[ ] Gynecomastia (male breasts)
[ ] Muscle Wastage
[ ] Muscle Weakness
[ x] Joint Pain
[ ] Dry / Dark Circles under eyes

[ x] Prostate pain
[ ] Persistent Fatigue / Exhaustion
[ x] Stomach Pains / Digestion Problems
[ x] Constipation / “Poo Pellets”
[ ] Vision - Acuity Decrease / Blurriness
[ x] Tinnitus (ringing or high pitched sound in ears)
[X ] Hearing loss
[ ] Increased hair loss
[ ] Frequent urination
[ x] Lowered body temperature

[ ] Other (please explain)
Burining sensation in my body dry skin muscles and bones pain face pain brain fog come and go chest kidney and stomach pain come and go severe insomnia and extreme anhedonia

What (if any) treatments have you undertaken to recover from your side effects since discontinuation of the drug?

If you have pre or post-drug blood tests, what hormonal changes have you encountered since discontinuing the drug (please post your test results in the “Blood Tests” section and link to them in your post)?

Anything not listed in the above questions you’d like to share about your experience?

Tell us your story, in your own words, about your usage and side effects experienced while on/off the drug.
I stopped the durg in March I didn’t get sever crash like people get often but the symptoms come slowly May I started to get sever anhedonia but in June the anhedonia seem to improve after I crash again and it been from June I just getting worst in all the planes August I attempted to end my life but I failed and this September is getting worst I sleep just 2 hours extreme anhedonia suicide thought pain in all my body and I feel I’m in crash but the crash is just slow and painful it’s been now almost 7 months and I didn’t get relife in any of my symptoms at all I think I’m sever case is unbelievable I was fit and active guy before that now my life is completely destroyed I can’t hold more then that even ketamine and the sleeping pills don’t work nothing give me relief try to eat healthy the same guys prays for me I’m just devastated and hopeless

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Welcome to the club.

I have extreme anhedonia and regret for my stupid mistakes 24/7 for 17 month now. Sometimes little windows on weekends.

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Hey @M1991,

Welcome to the forum and thank you for sharing your story with us.

I’m so sorry to hear you’ve been going through all this suffering. It’s absolutely baffling what devastating effects these substances can cause. I wish you all the strength in the world to push through these challenging times and hope that the worst of your symptoms may improve somewhat with time.

I don’t have a first-line treatment option to suggest, but I can tell you that there are good people at work trying to get to the bottom of this.
Not too long ago this community managed to collect enough money for a study into PFS patients which will be done in Germany, and another one is in the works. Our hope is that with enough studies somewhere down the line a clear therapeutic target can be established and that an effective treatment can be devised. It’s unfortunately impossible to tell how far away that goal is but I want to encourage you to try and survive for when that day comes.

Take good care of yourself, and if you ever have any questions or just want to talk to someone, don’t hesitate to reach out.