Update, it’s been 7 days since my pseudo-EDOVIS trial began and I have taken the following approximately 8 times, with the D3 beginning a couple days or so earlier:
- 125mcg D3 Cholecalciferol (Spring Valley brand)
- 2,550mg l-citrulline (Kyowa quality)
- 600mg French Maritime Pine Bark Extract (Pinus Maritama 90% total polyphenols)
- ~1/16th tsp Maca (Organika brand, although last dose was Organic traditions brand)
- ~1/32nd tsp Muira Puama Bark (Bear Woman Herbs)
- ~1/10th tsp Tribulus Terrestris L. Extract 40% Saponins (Herb Supply House)
- ~1/10th tsp Horny Goat Weed (The Elder Herb Shoppe)
Edited the tsp measurements because when I originally wrote this, I had forgotten my scoop is only 0.5 tsp, not 1.0 tsp.
I have “tested” something about every day throughout this time. I can honestly say that each one of these “tests” felt better than the last, with the an-O-mia being less each time.
Unfortunately, the odd appearance of the instrument continues to fluctuate randomly from normal to bizarre (kink and/or angle/curve until 100% erect). Although, emission volume (and odor …) is back to normal.
These are the main takeaways, and the rest of this post may not interest you. But feel free to read on.
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Pinus Maritama definitely helps with the Pinus. From the first dose it did exactly what I expected L-Citrulline to do: Substantially increased firmness. I discovered this before this regimen.
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Too much Horny Goat Weed causes irritability. Like, someone talks to you for one moment, and you feel like telling them to STFU, for no reason.
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Effects of too much Tribulus include anger and nausea.
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Muira Puama never seems to do anything acutely, no matter the dose.
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Effect of too much D3 ranges from vague malaise to nausea.
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Effect of too much Maca is a different sort of malaise and mental sleepiness, with other minor mental effects that are hard to describe.
Since beginning this regimen I have entered a cycle of approximately 48 hours where I feel calm, happy, and sociable, then feel the opposite, and find it almost impossible to feel attracted to a woman even in my imagination.
During the crest of this wave (such as now) I am able to smile upon command which I have been unable to do since taking Risperdal & Invega 4.5 years ago. This is very important to me.
In a previous post I described waking up one morning to find I was completely cured of a certain socially awkard feeling that I had experienced since quitting Lexapro 9.5 years ago. BUT, during these crests I feel this awkwardness even less. If I feel it less, it must still be there. It has been so long since I’ve felt normal, that I have somewhat forgotten what normal is like, and was slightly off when gauging this symptom.
Body odor returned early on, but disappeared again.
Because my lab results suggesting hyperthyroidism, I tried extremely small amounts of Natural Dessicated Thyroid, like less than half of a pencil eraser small. Everytime it did nothing but cause unpleasant mental stimulation and insomnia, so I figure I am not actually hyperthyroid.
Why did I use the word “miraculous” in my previous post? That was irresponsible. But, I was honestly having immense difficulty identifying what symptoms I still had. That’s how great I felt. I was walking outside and just relishing how fluid my movements and thoughts felt. I thought, and really hoped, it would stay this way, so I would never have to worry about my balance again. I had completely forgotten about akathisia.
But a few hours later when I turned a sharp corner I noticed the balance issue had come back I was struggling to accept such a disappointment, but then after I ate supper I found myself slowly rocking back and forth So the background akathisia has not left for good yet (of course I never let myself do that if there’s the slightest chance anyone might notice).
Every crest of this cycle feels better than the last. The other day I was walking about the house, being amazed at how beautiful the sunlight looked shining through the window, and how quiet the quiet room “felt”. I really miss being able to feel that a quiet room is actually quiet. I hope it continues like this.
Oddly during the trough, I am unable to make myself feel any better by reminding myself of the crest. Risperdal has hurt my ability to conjure up emotions, so that remembering good times and trying to relive them does next to nothing. I am also utterly socially inept, or incapacitated, during such times.
Is some of the recovery I’m making merely a coincidence? I think there’s a good chance. But, I need to believe it isn’t.
I have taken all of these herbs in various dosages and combinations before. Through trial & error I’ve found that, basically, less is more. Cordyceps isn’t part of this regimen but just as an example, a small dose helps with libido while a large dose extinguishes it.
I was about to post this but remembered one more thing. These past 7 days I have been completely free of POIS-induced fatigue when lifting weights. Either that, or I’ve suddenly become significantly stronger all at once. I am still confused about this.
Also, I have been experiencing mild nipple itching a couple times a day. No gyno yet though.