I was 20. Now Iam 25. I ve lost everything. Just like every single one of you. No use describing this hell.
Is there honestly anything that is left to try. Im tired of the torture.
- Is there no bloodwork, no diagnosis. of any kind that consistently comes out of the norm. My test when I was 21, came to 380 ng/dl. Thats near the levels that 80 y.o men have. But targeting it doesn’t help. Have we checked the upstream chemicals that end up making test and estrogen? Any inputs.
- This rxisk site has a hefty reward for the discoverer of the cure. If it is real, why don’t we use these funds to commision research into this instead of sitting around. @awor @Dubya_B mates do we have any insight into this?
I have been resistance training since october. On top of that, I decided I will live till March as if nothing is wrong with me. And believe me, I did. I forced away the constant pressure of impending doom from my chest. Every time I had a bad thought, I would push it away and think it will become better. I actually actually stayed hopeful. i look (nearly) chiseled but there isn’t a single iota of improvement in my symptoms. I can’t watch my life pass me by, I can’t watch everybody grow while I am still stuck in 2015. Not a single dream fulfilled. I destroyed my family’s lives. What will my mother and father and sister do. Forget about friends and romance, we’ve just been locked out of that. It hurts, constantly.
I really want someone to hug me and tell me it will be okay, I want someone to do it for all of us. But it has been 5 years.5 years with the lack of whatever hormone calms me down and makes me feel peaceful. 5 years of constant hopelessness just piling up. The pile just keeps getting bigger and my time just keeps slipping away. Haha.
I know some of you beautiful bastards can cope with this. But many people here had some time to enjoy. I and many others were very young. I didn’t get to do anything before all my options greyed out.
Is there, honestly and pragmatically, anything left for us to try? Something in the near future. Its ok for the answer to be no. It almost definitely is. Its not our fault. If it is, I need someone to say it so I can steel myself for drastic measures. I am heartbroken writing this, but it is what it is.