I'm royally fucked - METHAMPHETAMINE vs SUICIDE

Therapeutic Efforts Pharmaceutical
#1

It’s all I have now. Crystal fucking methamphetamine. No, I’m not a psycho out of no where, I am registered user at this forum under a different name, I wish to remain anonymous for this post. I’ve had enough. There isn’t going to be justices for any of us and you know it. The world isn’t fair and nothing is fair. The world is corrupt and you know it, stop trying to resist reality by fighting it with this forum. Am I leaving? No, I don’t think so, I even think you’ll still see me here unless my heart explodes. You’re all my friends and I love you tremendously with all my heart, but I just can’t take it anymore.

Meth vs. suicide, which would you take? I’ll take both. Meth = death, and none of you should do it, because you’re stronger than me, I just have to share this with you or I’ll fucking explode. I think finasteride is worth than meth by a fucking fuckload, so what does that say about finasteride? Recreational drugs are no answer.

Meth isn’t a recreational drug. I learn’t think after I had a “friend” inject me in the arm with a fair fucking dose about 3 days ago, I honestly have no fucking clue. What did it do? Did it solve anything?

For about 10 hours I was fucking God.

I suffer from ALL the sexual sides of finasteride and they ALL reversed, superceding my prefinasteride sexual abilities by about 10 fold. The brain fog, I have that too, was that gone also? FUCK YES. Again, about I could think about 10 times more clearly than I could before. This drug is like none other, I fucking hate it to death. It made me feel like it had improved me and my whole life tremendously. I had erections and I had sex with some whore, and when I came I felt like I had never felt before. My orgasm was so fucking intense, again, 10 times better than I was prefin. I felt more than confident and social than I even was when I was a happy normal person, popping a poison pill, once daily.

My chronic fatigue?
BLOWN OUT OF THE FUCKING UNIVERSE.

I’m going to do meth again.
I’m going to do meth as often as I can.
I strongly suggest you don’t fucking think about it, because I’m already dead.

I guess, Mew, you can lock this thread if you like, but if you’re going to delete this thread then ask yourself if you’re any better than Merck itself. If you honestly think I’m trying to promote this synthetic chemical as a cure for fin sides, then I couldn’t laugh more. I feel 3x worse afterward.

Simple as this gang.

#2

I am a recovering addict and alcoholic. I suffer the same symptoms you do from Post Fin, but I see no need to return to that lifestyle. That shame you feel afterwards, it only gets worse. When, and I say when because it will happen, you run out of money and end up stealing for this feeling and get locked up… It will be you, impotent, depressed, sitting in jail, without access to any kind of doctor who gives a shit about your recovery or the internet. Alone with yourself. Fuck that.

I have been in in recovery for over 5 years now and I am kicking myself for getting my life perfect, then fucking it up with my vanity in order to just stop hair loss.

I can’t take that choice back, so I try to be the best person I can be and live each day on a moment to moment basis.

Taking DHEA really helped my depression sooo much.
I feel great, sure it might be a bandaid on cancer, just treating a symptom, but it sure beats the alternative.
Losing my dignity and self respect.
Good luck.

#3

may God have mercy on you

#4

I’m running a book on the identity of the poster:

JN: 5/1

Boston: 11/1

Mew: 200/1

#5

i briefly thought about not replying to this message.
but…here we go.

this is one of the most stupid posts i have ever read here - really.
yeah right, there won’t be any justice. all of us here go through shit and merck might not pay for it in the end.
this is honestly my second concern. i want to get better first. i don’t care about merck right now. first things first. I am sitting in shit for ~7years.
i try to turn negative emotions into action and contributing to this forum -
AND THIS IS WHAT THIS FORUM HERE IS FOR!
I guess noone here wants to read about anybody going crazy and popping up drugs like meth. You have a fucking responsibility here dude, to stay positive and if you can not stay positive than at least don’t post such bullshit here.
This affects other people in trying to get better.

So kick ‘desperattte’ out of your life NOW and come back to this forum with your ususal name contributing to this forum.

I wish all of us the best, including you!

#6

I’m willing to place a $100 bet on one of the three.

I’ll give you a hint: it’s not the last one.

#7

Perhaps not the new ‘high TRT and cialis’ route.

#8

desperattte,

Why post under a new user name. None of us have ever met you personally. If you actually consider everyone here your friends, you should not hide your identity from us.

Regarding using drugs or suicide. I would never consider either for the simple reason that it is the most selfish thing you can do to your family and friends. I would never want my parents, siblings or friends to have to go through the anguish that either of those things would cause. I honestly believe it would kill my mother and she would not want to continue living.

No doubt what we are going through is horrible. We should not have to be dealing we these types of things, especially at such a young age. If you feel incredibly desperate to resort to using drugs. Use one that might actually help you like TRT. Try that for a few weeks and you might cause you to snap out of this rash decision-making you are making.

#9

Actually desperattte is on to something that I have read on the internet before, that amphetamines increase the domamine levels in your brain. Meth is also the substance that selegiline metabolizes to in your body. It may sound crazy but desperattte is doing what most of us are doing on this board, trying to find something to compensate for what fin has done to us.

#10

Well it’s not me. I’m sitting here reading a book.

Scaredmale30; you’re a horrible man. Don’t forget that your marriage is failing and you stated to me in our extensive correspondence that you ‘wouldn’t mind jumping in front of a train’. The poster is more likely to be you.

I also don’t remember opening a book on YOUR risk of committing suicide. Maybe I should have; it sounded like the odds were good, and possibly still are.

sghcnt; How dare you make a mockery of a serious situation. Where a man is talking about suicide, you can only join in with a senseless book keeper. You offer no altruism, no hope and no kind words. You’re a disgrace.

I say to desperattte that there is plenty of hope. In fact, it increases day by day. It’s understandable that you’ve resorted to meth, but I think if you act sensibly, you’ll get yourself out of this situation. I think we’re close.

Keep your head up, get your 3AdiolG tested and then you can get on treatment.

Best Wishes

JN

#11

Yeah, it was just a joke.

Don’t worry, I haven’t forgotten that my marriage is failing and that I am suicidal. I don’t quite see what that has got to do with this, though. It’s not like I’m criticising this guy for also feeling that way.

What would you rather that I said to this guy? That there is hope, etc, etc. Having been in his position and posted similar posts here, I can reveal that those kinds of platitudes don’t mean much. Sometimes a joke is all you have got.

Don’t get upset because I named you in the joke. They were random choices. No one took them seriously. Plus now you have come here and set the record straight. Plus this whole site is anonymous anyway, so no one knows who you are.

#12

Well, truth be told, I was half serious; I think the poster’s identity is quite obvious, although I won’t state it explicitly since, for whatever reason, he wishes for his anonymous moniker to remain anonymous. I think he’s facing bigger problems than post-fin syndrome alone, and if it’s gotten to the point of serious drug-use than there’s really little or nothing that I can add to the discussion. Perhaps I shouldn’t have said anything though - I’ll give you that. ScaredinMD said it all and I hope the user listens to him.

#13

I think I have an idea who it might be but then I can’t believe that poster would go down this route…

I agree though that we are all in this thing together wether we like it or not and must get used to this and fully cooperate without stupid slandering. There might come a time when we have to congregate in the real world.

#14

meth = quick burnout. Too quick for a body that already has taxed adrenals and fucked up hormonal system.

It will take you less than a week of constant use before you’re totally burnt and unable to replicate the effects.

Have you tried exercising at all? It’s a slow but consistent build. Better than a meth crash, that only leads you to death or feeling like death… you might be able to start after a few months of being off that shit…

#15

Hey, I’m the dude who posted about the heroin earlier, and all I wanna say to the original poster is that you should really watch out for yourself…

I mean yeah I did heroin, and I still might have the occasional binge every now and then, but from what I know meth will eat you alive much, much more quickly than heroin ever could. Meth, unlike heroin, actually has the ability to totally kill your brain receptors to the point that they never recover. Heroin may eat away at your endorphin receptors, but those receptors actually come back after a while when you stop, with meth you basically might not ever have a chance to naturally feel happiness or pleasure again, but with heroin withdrawl you feel normal after about 3 weeks. Not to mention, meth causes you to basically look like a total piece of trash that no decent person is gonna want to have sex with.

I don’t have extensive experience, but I’ve dabbled in cocaine, MDMA, and aderall in the past and they’ve all eliminated my libido and made my penis shrink up while on it (before finasteride). I’ve never tried meth, and it is basically almost non-existant in my area, but I do know it has the ability to increase libido a whole lot which is why the gay community likes it so much.

But if you like meth sooo much, than I would suggest you try to get a prescription for desoxyn somehow instead of using that street shit someone cooked up in a trailer. You’d probably have to go to a psyche and say you got ADHD, and after working your way through concerta, vyanse, ritalin, aderall, and saying none of them help you out then you can ask your doc that you would like to try desoxyn. I think desoxyn has a slightly different chemical makeup than street meth, and I am pretty sure it’s a world of difference in terms of safety than street meth since it’s made legitimately as a pharmaceutical drug. I’ve actually read of people who take it for ADHD who say they have less side effects with it than regular aderall and they lead totally normal lives. Granted because of the slightly different chemical structure it might not get you as “high” if you take it, but that shouldn’t be an issue for you if you’re legitimately trying to overcome finasteride sexual problems.

But what you’re doing, in my opinion, is much more dangerous than my heroin withdrawl method or the GHB method…

I suggest going to www.bluelight.ru if you would like some support.

Take care and seriously don’t do anything you’ll regret later…

#16

Pain management,

Did your recovery last, or was it just the T flooding your system from the WD’s?