I just had an awful day. I am getting so tired of all this… Sorry about the tone on this post, but the only word i can find to describe what i am feeling is exaustion.
My major problems after Fin are total lack of libido, penis numbness and depression.
erections are fine, ejaculation too… but i have no motivation for sex.
The problem is that i feel sex (or DHT, or libido) was my natural defense against depression. I got a feeling of completion and calmness that i don’t get anymore. It is as if an orgasm doesn’t FEED my brain anymore (as weird as it sounds, that is the way i feel).
It has become a cycle, i have sex or masturbation, feel frustrated because it is not the same anymore, and get depressed. So i battle the depression, and slowly get better… then whenever i touch my penis (even if it is on a rare morning erection) and it is numb, the cycle restarts…
I should probably start exercising again, but it is very hard to feel motivated to do it in a situation like this. i don’t want to take SSRI’s. Does anybody know about any suplements that could help me with depression?
You can try taking St. John’s Wort. 5-htp is also supposed to help but I’d suggest you try that only if you don’t think St. John’s Wort is doing enough for you.
It is as if an ograsm doesn’t feed my brain anymore… great words… I totally agree… I wish I will wake up someday and this terrible feeling will go away… Now the brain is almost dead:(
Thanks for the help guys.
I have tried St Johns Wort but it gave me strong headaches.
I will definetely try fish oil. hopefully it will held the depression and maybe my high colesterol.
Mew, how many miligrams of fish oil do you suggest?
I updated the link in the original post I made, but here it is anyway:
thorne.com/altmedrev/.fulltext/8/4/410.pdf
See page 10 for some trials run with fish oil and dosages. Seems 1-3g is the norm, I’d start with 1g for a month and see how you do, then bump it up from there.
corv quick question how are you sleeping? poorly?
Most of the times i sleep fine. The problem is when i wake up… I wake up depressed very often, and it wasn’t like this at all before fin.
There are days i feel my body is accelerated, i have too much energy. On these days i still fall asleep fine, but the quality of sleep is very poor and i have nightmares all night. My body is under stress constantly, even though i have adapted my lifestyle not to be under stress.
That’s what I have too. A crazy dreams… like from a crazy psycho movie… Sleep is rather poor and when I wake up it is as if somebody have just tested a heavy hummer on my head.
I think that this is due to the progesteron floating in my brain having problems to be converted further to allopregnolone (elevated progesteron proven in the blood work). That causes day/night anxiety, dizziness, brain fog, panic attacks… and sleep problems.
Ithappens I have heard that you managed with this…
I had crazy violent nightmares when I first came off and things started to go wrong. Weird coincidence.