I can’t get any work done.
Due to profound anhedonia, my mind resists any effortful action. It is extremely hard to make myself do even the easiest tasks, let alone do something difficult and complex. Any effort to force my attention is met with debilitating head pressure and brain fog.
How many of you are able to keep your job or stay in school? I want to hear how you do it - what keeps you going? Is this even possible?
I am way on my way of losing the last things I have managed to hold on to in life since I got PFS 3.5 years ago.
This must be the most painful way to die. By suicide, yes, but first losing one by one with great suffering all the things that makes life possible - and by all apparent external appearances, due to one’s own profound personal failure.
Has a more hellish type of torture ever been devised?