How do you handle a hot summer with PFS?

All my life I spent the hot and sunny summer weather swimming in the water of an natural lake and exposing the sun. Now I sit inside and hate the summer, the long days, people sitting together in a cafe enjoying the summer. How do you cope the summer as a PFS member?!


Summer in the city

All my life connected with water and sun. In Berlin I drove with the subway to a lake in the forest and spent all the time on a meddow with nice naked people. Everywhere I stayed in my life I lurked for a little lake. Here my hometown has it’s own lake with a little lido. Sometimes we have spent sunny weekends at the north sea in Holland in a camping ground. Ibiza, Mallorca, Menorca, La Gomera, Logo Maggiore, Lago du Garda… Algarve in Portugal, Naxos, Paros, Greece, California Beaches, Sylt, Baltic Sea…

Now sitting inside. Totally creazzy, like a 80 year old hiding from the sun. Akastasia with regret and what I have made wrong in my life.

Not to recognize my demons. The fucking shit doctor in the backdoor fricklers K*. I went there by my own desicion. No one forced me to go there. No one forced me to take the poison with me… No one has forbidden me to check the internet… No one has forced me to throat the ugly pill that night …no one forced me to go one after the first side effects…

My Sumner thoughts right now. All my life I thought about the nice shapes of the women, girlfriends or the beautiful landscape with Greece Mountains, la Gomera vulcans…feeling my tinned skin, sexual aroused, walking on endorphins to the strand bar …feeling so great in the summer…

Summer in the city


I know what you mean :frowning:

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To some degree life was and still is what you make of it.

Unfortunately, not much can be done from what I have left
I’m light years away from my former self.