Its been about 19 days off just 1 mg dose of fin. I woke up the next day with no penis to brain connection and it has remain unchanged to this day. No crash, just straight impotence. I can get hard through stimulation and orgasm which brings temporary relief, but the lack of sex drive and libido is making me suicidal.
My blood work and hormones all came back “normal”, prolactin only slightly high.
I had a date with my gf all day yesterday and it was so hard, no physical reaction when kiss or hugging her, no sexual reaction at all unless stimulated. This makes me more anxious and panic.
We had plans to marry soon and start a life together… that’s all ruined now. She doesn’t realize how bad it is and just thinks I have some ed, but I have no emotions at all right now.
Its only been 19 days and I think of death as a relief from this pain, depression and anxiety every day. When I work, I am so close to breaking down and can’t keep it up. I pray for healing. But nothing really changes. This is not living. I am a husk of a person, shaking, losing more hair, and yet unable to shed a tear.
I beg someone to give me and advice in how they have coped. How they have found hope in this darkness. Should I break things off with my gf to save her the pain of me breaking apart? I keep telling myself “just give it one more day” but that is starting to feel futile now.
I am weak and admire the strength of those who have been battling this for years. You are much stronger men than I.