Every day,all day it’s the same fuckin thing.
Obsessing and worrying for 10 YEARS what Fin has done to me.
Every day all day focused on my sensitivity and how it’s getting worse. It’s nothing basically.
I can’t eben say that it’s the worst symptom (even though themats predominantly been my worst by far!)
However ocerbrhe new year I had a Huge crash including:
Digestion completely stopped
Mid-section was inflated like air was being pumped into me
Among other things
I have since recovered those symptoms and thank God. All the time during those symptoms I thought “who gives a shit about sex. These symptoms are unbearable”
But now that they have gone after 1 1/2 months my dick is worse.
I don’t even feel when it’s hard anymore.
Outer sensitivity was always an issue. But this is truly bad. I get hard when I sleep and wake up not even knowing. JESUS CHRIST!
I’m truly hanging on by a thread.
I was gonna beva happy guy. Always resilient
Until this. It took love and girls away from me.
Now I just survive. And ya know what
It’s taking its fucking toll.
I don’t even know if I will last. I’m not even alluding to anything. I honestly don’t know if I will last. It’s too much.
It’s all I can think about. It’s all I deal with.
It consumes me. I’ve tried and I tried.
I honestly don’t know how much I got left in the tank until my spirit gives out on me. I’m just a man.
Ppl say go talk to someone. Seek a therapist.
The only way I’ll be happy is if I get my body back again. Talking will not help me.
Oh yea today’s a bitter and dark day. Like most days.
This is all too much.
I understand I’m not the only one.
But this is getting the better of me and I’m aftaid is winning.
I’d do anything to get my body back