Around 2 months ago I made the worst decision of my life and took 1 mg finasteride after being off dutasteride at that point for 2 weeks. I was on dutasteride for 4ish months before that with sides like muted orgasms and less erectile function. My penis is now smaller in flaccid state and dark, hard flaccid, with new veins and dry stretchy skin. Unfortunately around the 1 month mark I made the decision to try abusing testosterone at random dosages and now I feel that my sexual sides are worse and I cannot achieve an erection. I‘m in the middle of a crash after pinning my last bit of testosterone which I promptly threw away because it has stopped helping me and gave me red spots on my skin. I will now be detoxing from testosterone which is sure to put me in an even worse state of mind. I need advice, and mostly, I need some hope even if it is coping. I keep telling my dad I cant live like this but I would never go so far as suicide because that would destroy my family.
Sincerely,
Meek0s