Hello guys,
Wanted to make an update of my state… Since last posted there has been some changes…
Well, in my last post I said I was a bit better in sex terms (still fucing shit but more at least I had a bit of libido and could have some weak erections…) Well, that was on august 11th… On august 13 I went to my holidays trip (China and Philippines), didn’t feel like to go, but I had everything booked already and I though it could help the fact to move out from home…
The trip was fucking hard, some days I was like a zombie… Some other days I had more energy and even enjoyed some things… The main problem was the energy, I tried to have erections almost every day… Some days I could have them, some mornings I was waking up with weak erections too… But never fully erection…
So I sayed 20 days and came back home…Just the day after coming back I woke up and I was not feeling this heavy tiredness… and I woke up with a powerfull erection… My libido suddenly got super high and I could have erections again. That lasted 2 weeks more or less… Since then I’m still able to get erections but not as hard as normal and not as easy as normal…
This is like a roller coaster… I’m sick of it… My tiredness is going and coming as well…But at the moment never as heavy as before the trip…
You know guys, I think most of the things of this mess are hormones… I mean… Before pfs and since I had 23 years old, my hair became greasy and it changed a lot, more weak, falling down a lot… this is why I started to take finasteride… So all these years my hair was like this… never changed and it was so shit and fustrating for me… Right… So when I got pfs (CRASH on april 2015) my hair changed again, A LOT! I swear guys, I didn’t give a shit, because I was suffering from impotence, anxiety, panic attacs etc…But I noticed that grease disappeared, and my hair wasn’t falling as much as normally, in the shower, the pillow etc… It became stronger… Then, bit a bit I got rid of all the symptoms, and my hair kept like this over the time… I was fucking happy because a part of recovering of PFS symptoms my hair was better than ever, so I started to live with no worries at all enjoying everything in life, coul touch my hair with no worries, could stay without cleaning my hair for 2 or 3 days with no problems… WAS AMAZING! My hair was like this all second half of 2015, all 2016, all 2017 and part of 2018… Also I was sleeping better than ever, resting a lot, lot of energy to make sport, having inside a feeling of happines… I even got a house on june of 2017 because I was focused again in live, and wanted to move on and moving from my parents and start live again…
The thing guys is that after all this second CRASH I had last july/august as i’m saying I recovered agin from sexual sides, tirednees etc…(with ups and downs, now not very well) but the thing is that my hair changed a loooot again… Since a I came from the trip I noticed my hair so greasy again, falling down much more, weak etc etc… What a fucking nightmare… So this is why I think is all hormones… Is like my body have had 2 big changes in hormonal terms, and during this perido the body can’t function properly until it get balanced again… And once I have this, it changes the hair and other things…because now I can’t have that good sleep that I had months ago, no that energy anymore, and my mood is not happy anymore… And guys is not that I’m worried for my hair and this is why I don’t sleep or whatever… It’s something that is not working good in my body, and it makes my hair like this, my sleep like this and my mood like this… I spent so many years thinking that everything was because I was worried for my hair, but it wasn’t… It was something bad in my body… This is maybe the explanation of why all the 4 years that I took finasteride it never stopped my hair falling down, because maybe it wasn’t AGA, and yes, finasteride finally made a big CRASH in my hormone system and this is why then my hair changed… and now it changed again… I don’t now guys, maybe all this that I’m saying has not sense at all, but I swear that all these feelings and sensatios are completely REAL, I feel it exactly as I’m explain all this… So well, I’m on a diet now… gonna try to mae sport, and keep going… hopefully I can feel again 100% in sex and energy terms… I will try to deal with the greasy thing and the shit hair… but wanna feel like before at least in all the other things…
thank you guys