Friends, did you have a nice Christmas? I terrible. Believe me, it’s the worst Christmas of my life, it’s the first one I do with this damn PFS. I think I’ve never felt bad like this in these 6 months. I feel like finished, I feel eaten inside and I’m crying to type this shit. It should be a day of happiness, being with friends, with the person you love, with the family, being serene, feeling good, damn it is a damn nightmare for me! Apart from being a terrible condition, I bring another, even greater, suffering, responsible for all of this. It’s something monstrous for me. Living with this situation is simply disturbing. I honestly do not know how I am still alive, but often, I would like all this to end. I still keep a hope. I really hope that 2019 will bring us hope for all of us, nobody deserves to be like that. Nobody. Sorry for the outburst.
Try and stay strong friend. Try 5aDHP? Try exercise? Baking soda? I don’t know what you’ve tried so far but don’t quit.
Every day you’re one day closer to the treatment or cure being found - and rest assured the ONLY people who DO get better are the people who don’t give up.
Keep going there.
Seeing as it helped me, get on a STRICT 5-day water fast. Day 3 it gets easier and you ‘settle’ into ‘running down’ (you’ll see what I mean.) When you start eating again, probiotic drink first, gently creep in raw veg. I got a solid day of being pretty much fixed out of that. Try it with the baking soda too (1/4 spoon AM and PM, build up to 1/2 spoon AM and PM.)
im not even going to a Christmas party
im staying home on laptop 
No I tried to with family but couldn’t really. I have no feelings. Also an ex-girlfriend is visiting for the week and wants to hang out but I can’t cause I’m a sexually dysfunctional zombie. Life is passing me by. Again. So no I didn’t.
I understand that Christmas was tough for a lot of people and I can totally relate.
I had a much better Christmas this year than I have for the last two years and so although things can seem bad now they can get better, and I’m sure there will be better times for all of us ahead.
Even tonight, I’m really very sick. I really spent a Christmas and a nightmare holiday. The girls look for me but I can not do anything. I had to say what I have to prevent them from hurting me. I can not have sex or have a girlfriend nor masturbate. Sexually I’m dead. I would like as a gift that we are all well soon and that we can go back to fuck like a hedgehog and enjoy life as we deserve.
Thank you my friend. I for January I think to try Progesterone and hcG.
If that’s a good thing…? I hope for that too. 
“Scopare come un riccio” that is, fuck so much! 
I’ve never really missed fucking like now, and I can not!