feminine body

Im ready to get on trt. Finasteride completely altered my body. Fucking 10 pills and 10 months later im still fucked over. Fucking infuriating.

This is unreal man. Of all the things ive done. Propecia left the most damage. Even hardcore drug addicts dont have these types of issues. All i know is that poison should never have been introduced into the human body. We are not evolved to tolerate fucking inhibitors that block an enzyme used in virtually every bodily function. And for what? Hair? Jesus christ if i could just go back in time. This may have literally ruined my life. And thats it. Thanks to fin I now live with relatives, have to take an antidepressant and a sleeping pill, for who knows how long. Im afraid to get off because I am afraid ill feel like i did three months ago. My life is not in my hands anymore. I look on facebook and see people my age enjoying their youth. They are in the prime of their lives. My body has the appearance of someone three ti

*Times my age. I will look back one day and say, man i could have had a really good life. But I took propecia. What a fucking shame. Wish id been killed in war, or died of a disease with dignity. Now ill live the rest of my life thinking about what could have been. No sense in continuing to ramble. It helps to let these things out. Fuck propecia.

How do u guys cope? I need to get back in the gym once my finals are over. Damned school. Keeps me from doing the thing I want to do. I wonder if I would’ve worried about my hair and appearance if I didn’t go to college. I would have been happy if I would’ve went straight to the military. After 5 years at this shithole I now am financially impoverished, loaded up with debt, ruined my health by taking propecia, became an alcoholic, stopped drinking finally. Now I’m eight months away from graduating and I feel thirty years older than I did when I left highschool 5 years ago. All for a degree which may not get me anywhere. Society puts its expectations on people. This is what I have done to my life by trying to please others, and live up to false expectations I placed on myself. I could’ve gotten out, went to work, saved money, shaved my fucking head, and I’d be in a hell of a much better place now. But that doesn’t matter anymore I can’t change it. I can only live to the fullest now. Never will I place VANITY before my health and ability to enjoy life. Fuck society’s superficial lifestyle. I want to get my own place and move far away. Never talk to anyone. Get a pet and be all alone.

I know how you feel, man.

Scared,

Sorry to hear what you’re going thru, but didn’t you just post a thread asking “Have I Recovered”? It sounded in that post most, if not all your sides were in check or at least improved? Can you clarify?

I see improvements, get excited and think im over this whole mess. But no I most def still have pfs. I have my good days and bad.

Since stopping Propecia, a year and a half ago, I have experienced feminine fat patterns. This started about a month after going off of Propecia, the weight gain was rather immediate thinking back. I eat healthier now than I ever have in life, mostly raw foods, organic, no more caffeine, and have seen no change in body shape or weight. When I was on Propecia I was around 166 lbs. Since stopping I am 183 lbs.

The weight is all concentrated in my love handles and lower back, like feminine hips. I have always had a smaller frame but this just makes me embarrassed now to wear a t shirt, or even go out a lot. It probably wouldn’t be that obvious to anyone if you didn’t know me before, but would just look out of shape for my body type. The thing is over the past year, I have been diligent about trying to stay in shape and yet nothing has really changed. The SHAPE of my body has remain changed since stopping Propecia.
The weight is also concentrated in my chest, thighs and buttocks, I just feel bloated all the time, like my body is not the same after stopping propecia.

I never feel comfortable in my body anymore and this is perhaps my worst side effect, though it’s hard to say.

It’s been a year. My body is just like what you describe above. I can’t think about it too much or I’ll get into self pity. I try to think things like, well at least I have a working body, most people don’t notice these things, and I am my own worst critic. I sometimes wish I’d been born before modern medicine. We create things that never should have been introduced into the body. God I hope they fix all this. I wish there was a consensus to a treatment, such as trt, hcg, anti estrogens, or some combination. we have no answers here. This is different from any other disease. This is a man made disease, and Merck needs to pay any amount to fix the problem they have created. And why aren’t news headlines reporting, " Mercks hair loss drug Propecia ravage men’s lives, permanently disfigure their bodies, cause changes in their brain chemistry which push some to killing themselves, chemically castrate some, and the list goes on". Well, I guess the saying life isn’t fair really applies. I’m not okay with my body as it is. I want my body I had before I took this poison one year ago. I will not stop until I have what I want. If I die pursuing this, someone responsible will die with me. It not okay to steal a person’s health and body from them without repercussions.

I am so weak and broken. I just Long for death. I’m not trying to be dramatic, it is just to hard for me.

Go see a counselor. You realize that some men have had PFS for over 10 years. You kill yourself and you miss all that comes with the Harvard research, and I have a feeling more research is coming out soon as well. Now is not the time to kill yourself - now is the time to be strong, hang in there and wait.

Well said Jorbie

scaredoutofmymind… Send me an email or PM and we can talk through our issues, I too was feeling like you yesterday and I still struggle most days but we need to stay strong.

Please get in touch with me.

Any update on your condition have you been trying anything to help your condition inquiring mind I want to know It’s been about 11 months bodies going Sousley seriously downhill Times unable to keep balance don’t know if the mind is that play or weak muscles

Yes, this… Exactly. I now have been left thinking that I could have had a decent life and that my prospects for this hope are dwindling. My life ever since stopping Propecia has been the equivalent of just existing, ambling along day to day. I don’t go out much or see friends because I feel so sluggish/ will feel exhausted/ and have trouble keeping up with conversations, “being in the moment.” I am flat emotionally and do not enjoy things in the same manner I used to.

I moved back home from living away at school. I’ve had many panic attacks ever since stopping, and never experienced this before in life. The cognitive impairment I have experienced makes me feel like I have to work twice as hard at school work online, reading, writing, my memory recall is not the same, and socially this has made me want to withdraw. This is very frustrating for someone who had a strong suit in reading/writing and was an intelligent enough person. I used to write creatively all the time, poetry, a few times a week a least, this was part of my life. I haven’t written anything in years now, basically ever since stopping Propecia. My life went backwards while my friends continues to progress, this is hard for me to see and I wonder if there is any way out sometimes.
I talk to a therapist on occasion but these things I am saying to her do not seem to resonate, it is hard for people to understand. When I try to explain what I have been dealing with with people, I do not feel a strong sense of compassion or that they understand. This is a “hidden” disease, which is very frustrating.

I try to be calm, count my blessings and not take things for granted, but when you physically, mentally and sexually do not feel like yourself, it is hard to thrive in any form in your life. I am truly wondering how I am going to hold a job, support myself and not be a burden on my parents anymore. They also do not understand the severity of my side effects on a daily basis. And act as if I will be back to my old self all the time, but this is simply not the case.

This past year, heart palpitations began which I recently had checked out at the doctor. I thought it was anxiety for the longest time, but notice my resting heart rate is always jacked up, even when I do feel mentally relaxed. Before bed, waking up, the rhythm of my heartbeat has changed dramatically, the second beat being just as fast, if not faster, then the first. I am going to see a cardiologist in a few weeks.

Is there anyone here who is still able to work fine, go about their daily lives, how do you get through your days feeling ok? Do you feel as effective in what you do?

Thank you for the feedback in advance. This is just a really bad time.

Brendan

I can relate to everything you just wrote and you too SCARED

I also have protruding hips and fat in my chest areas too.

I’m not able to work, I’m in a mental home now and have been for the past 7 weeks.

I feel like ending my life every day and refuse to accept PFS
I am my own worst critic and feel one day I will build enough courage to end my misery.

The thought of living another 30-40 years with PFS just devastated me.

I have this… I have stretch marks all around my inner thighs, hips and buttocks when the fat began moving there. The most striking thing is that my waist has “sinched” in, like a woman’s. You know, like the dips in a guitar or violin. I don’t wear t-shirts because it looks really odd, it shows my very female curves. I wear very loose shirts to conceal this issue. I also do exercises to specifically burn fat in my buttocks, thighs and hips. To try and keep sort of balanced out. As far as my appearance goes it sort of works, but this is the least of my worries next to 0 libido, ED, etc.