A lot of people say they are emotionally flat. That they can’t feel anything, for me I was like that the first 3 weeks post crash couldn’t even cry even though I felt miserable. Ever since that though I have been able to feel sadness and depression to the extreme… I almost wish I couldnt feel anything. I flux from being “ok” to a total mess every few days. I struggle everyday hanging on to shreds of hope that things will get better after losing so much.
I know many of us feel depression… but how many of you does it seem that negative things hit you much much harder than they used to? For me when I first crashed… I kept renumerating over things from my past insignificant things that really hold no bearing.
Life is so hard like this.