INTRO
Ok so I’ve been silently reading loads of people’s messages on this and various forums for months, even years. I’ve never spoken out before about my problems, because there are so many other people having the same problems that there seemed little point.
Merck have screwed us over. Somehow in that horrible American Experiment it has become possible for a company to sell drugs that destroys men’s lives without being stopped, ever.
I’ll do the usual, and tell everyone my story, my symptoms, and what I’ve tried. But then I will also tell you my solution, which has restored me from being 25% of the man I once was, to 80% of the man I once was. This isn’t a sales pitch, this is my life.
BACKGROUND
My symptoms aren’t severe compared to what I’ve read. I did propecia for the first time when I was 20. I tried it for 3 days, developed rashes all over my body, and had to stop because of an allergic reaction, but I had no side effects afterwards. 6 years later, I let my vanity get the better of me, and I went back on it. Although I had read bad things about it, I thought, these were all one-offs. If there’s millions of users, and the drug has been legal for THIS long, the odds of having these side effects are SURELY tiny.
I didn’t study the forum reports for long enough though, I didn’t realise that many of the guys had been suffering side effects for years, and really, all of their side effects seemed fairly permanent! It put my faith in the corporations and the system rather than in the crap people write on the internet, and I was a fool who had it completely the wrong way round.
I was also a vain chump, who didn’t realise that the world doesn’t really judge men on appearances as much as it does women (the latter I admit is very sad). If you’re a young (or old) guy thinking of trying it, PEOPLE DO NOT CARE ABOUT YOUR APPEARANCE, THEY ONLY CARE ABOUT IF YOU TAKE PRIDE IN YOUR APPEARANCE, WHICH IS A CHOICE. DO NOT TAKE THE RISK WITH PROPECIA.
I’m humiliated by writing about this, despite my slightly less serious symptoms compared to other men on here, and it’s as personal as one can possibly get but it’s my duty to share my solution, because no one ever hears about it. If you can hack my email, or figure out who I am, please be discrete. I have shared incredibly personal facts that I’m ashamed of, only because I want to help others.
SYMPTOMS BEFORE STOPPING:
I went on it exactly 4 years ago, when I was 26 and my stint lasted 15 months. Initially there were no real side effects while I was on it. From 4-15 months though I gradually stopped getting erections in the morning, and I gradually started getting weaker erections generally. I started to feel a bit “numb and quiet down there” in the evenings, after 5-6 months.
The first 1-2 months were great, by the way! For some reason, my sex drive went off the chart, I also began coming huge loads, and getting a huge boner every time I spoke to my girlfriend on the phone, one time even whilst standing in the ocean! So if you think it’s going well 1-2 months in, you could be in for a nasty surprise.
Suddenly, 15 months after I had started it, the fully body rash suddenly came back, and the only way to get rid of it was to get off propecia.
I also had terrible mood swings during the 4-15 month period.
SYMPTOMS AFTER STOPPING:
After I stopped, the rash went down. My strong erections immediately came back a fair bit, but not fully. My sex drive was so low in the evenings, however. I also didn’t have great erections in the morning either, and really, I never had a GREAT erection. I didn’t fantasise about naked women as much during the day to myself, in fact, it was a mere fraction of what I used to think in my pervy little mind!
I would wake up in the night with utterly no sex drive, but also feeling so depressed.
As time went on things got worse too. I had slight pins and needles in my penis when I had an erection. For some reason, about 11 months after stopping, I started to get pretty bad headaches if I read too much, or even thought too much, (yes I had my eyes tested, no I don’t have any brain tumor or anything serious wrong with me like that). Although maybe this is just linked to me turning 30, but I don’t think so.
My dick also use to feel sore for 2 days after wanking (this suddenly starting happening 11 months after stopping). Gone were the days when I could shag someone 7 times in a day, I thought. My ejaculations were always fine, but my orgasms were generally a bit weaker. My dick would feel so sore after wanking sometimes, that I wouldn’t even want to try to see if I could go again (yes I used lube, no I didn’t do anything weird or wank too much)
I couldn’t stop waking up 3 hours before I was meant to get up either, feeling depressed and utterly lacking in sex drive, but also with a racing heart, and completely unable to get back to sleep (yet if I got up, I would totally collapse half way through the day, my solution was to allow 10 hours for sleep per night, and to lay there writhing in mental misery as I very slowly drifted back to sleep (sometimes I wouldn’t drift back to sleep at all)).
My dick also, after 11-20 months, started looking a bit more shrivelled, hanging a little smaller, the erections were a tiny bit smaller than they used to be, maybe half an inch (every guy knows their measurements).
TRIED SOLUTIONS
Propecia has made me into a better man in some respects, for all the wrong reasons. I didn’t want to try steroids, DHT pills/injections. After this I will never mess with my body’s hormones again. I didn’t go and see the doctor either. If they’re so thick that they let me take this stuff (I got this from my GP, not from some rip-off clinic like the BELGRAVIA centre in London), then unless I’m having life threatening problems I’m not going near them.
I quit smoking completely, I quit drinking coffee, I only drink alcohol occasionally, I don’t do drugs, no anti-depressants or legal drugs even, I sleep well, I exercise, I try to see my friends, I don’t have a job that causes me stress. I’m pretty much the poster boy for everything someone who’s trying to beat depression/live as healthily as possible ought to be doing (except taking anti-depressants).
This may have helped a little. Although there have been so many variables over such a long period of time, it’s hard to tell.
Also if I didn’t jerk off for 3-4 days my sex drive would return in force, literally, I’m-gonna-hump-a-lampost if I don’t get laid/jerk-off immediately kind of horny. This was inspiring for me in my miserable world at that time. Although my dick would still feel sore afterwards, and it would be back to usual after another wank or two in terms of all my symptoms. God it’s so weird writing so frankly to people I don’t know.
Generally if I was on holiday, doing absolutely fuck all all day, my dick would recover SLIGHTLY quicker from masturbating, and my sex drive would be raised a bit, but it still wasn’t what it was before I went on Propecia, even when I had loads of stressy stuff on.
THE SOLUTION:
The solution was a little set of online notes I bought when I was 18 about jelqing, which had been gathering dust since I had become quite happy with my penis size. You can Google what they (jelqs/jelqing) are. I found them, just because I was trying every solution possible to solve my problem. My routine is this:
Every 2-3 days:
100-120 pc flexes, I think that’s what they’re called
5second/10s/15s/20s/30s pc holds in that order
10 minutes of 5 second jelqs
I’d heavily recommend you just pay someone, or even two people/websites online so you can compare notes, and get proper details on the above exercises. I don’t know what the good sites are because I bought this little online set of notes 12 years ago. There’s tonnes of little things you need to know that can make or break the whole routine or prevent you hurting yourself, such as, don’t look at porn when you do it so you can focus on the exercises, use tonnes of lube, make sure you can feel the blood gorging the blood vessels when you do the jelqs so that it works, don’t jelq with a full erection, do them sitting down.
MY RESULTS
This has changed my WORLD. I don’t wake up in the middle of the night anymore, I wake up at the right time with an erection, a rock hard erection! And I don’t know if my dick is any bigger (which is why I initially bought the notes when I was 18, I’m embarrassed to say). My problems weren’t catastrophic to begin with though, but they were serious, I’d say.
The effect starts to fade after 2 days, and on the 4th day things start to go back to shitty post-propecia normal, in all respects. I doubt this will ever change. But I don’t get sore anymore, I can happily jerk off 3 times in a day and not be in pain. My sex drive still isn’t fully what it was. If, before I did Propecia, it was 100%, then after Propecia it was 25%, and now it’s 80%. I sometimes feel a bit weary at the end of the day, during the day my sex drives ranges from ok to quite horny, and if I leave it for a day it’s quite a bit stronger the day after.
Sadly I still get the headaches, they haven’t gotten any better. But I try to take subtle breaks at work, and sleep as well as I can which keeps them under control. Still, who gives a shit about my brain if my dick works! That’s me making light of the situation.
My dick also isn’t shrivelled anymore, and my erections are as big as they ever were. In fact, they’re stronger and slightly bigger than before I did propecia at all.
All I have to do is that little 20 minute routine every 3 days in the morning. No biggie. And it’s been working for me for 4 months.
THANK YOU
I’ve never spoken to anyone face to face about my Propecia problems. If there’s no solution, then there is no point, in my opinion. It’s something I’ve lumbered myself with, and I’d rather people did not view me as only half a man. Since I came off Propecia, I broke up with my girlfriend (I actually broke up with her just before the side effects kicked in, so no humiliation there at least), I lost my job, and worst of all my best friend got killed. But I’ve never been able to share the extent of my pain with anyone except you guys who are reading about this extra dimension that’s been going on. So thank you for that, and thank God for the internet.
I hope this will help each and every last one of you. Please be careful though, this solution may not be for everyone, and for God’s sake read more about those exercises from a variety of sources before trying them.
Stay strong and FUCK MERCK. FUCK THEM TO HELL.