Well… i finished my paramedic class somehow. It wasnt easy and i wasnt able to make any friends or connections due to my inability to interact healthily with people. ( I’m pretty sure everyone thought i was wierd)
My girlfriend leaving me caused my body to be extremely fucked for awhile… im still dealing with the stress i miss her so much.
It sucks not having someone to support me through this like she did. Just being around her and cuddling her helped a lot. But now i’m on my own.
I’ve joined Yoga and it has helped me a bit. I also jog quite a bit too… sometimes my balls still retract into my pelvic cavity depending on the temperature which sucks and stops my jogging short.
I don’t know if im getting better or worse. Things seems to be at a standstill.
Still blunted emotions… I am able to shed a few tears now and then especially since the break up, but it only lasts about 15 seconds until i revert back to neutral.
It’s wierd… I really miss her and want her back but my emotions over the whole thing arent as potent as they should be. I’m just kinda lost in robotic daze most of the time.