Im going to ask this question especially for the cases that has been suffering at least for 2-3 years. Im suffering for 5.5 years now and my symptoms got worse and worse. And as a highly aware and obsessive person, i still find new and new things that i lost everyday. I just realized how small my penis tip looks now when erect, before then, it was like a mushroom! I had a very big and strong penis, great sexuality. And i was taller among my friends (at 16). Now all my close friends are at least 2-3cm taller than me.
I had the biggest penis among all my friends, to the point where they did jokes about it. Now, i have narrow shoulders.
I really feel like this drug is even damaged my natural sexual and skeletal growth due to hormonal damage. It could even damaged the growth of my penis. Now my penis looks like a child’s slowly and slowly. After reading many recovery stories, i start to believe that they were all unknowingly tricking themselves. They only got better, like %90 and claimed 100% recovery. Why? Because after living with PFS/PAS all those years, they forget how things SHOULD really be. Even i forget it. Keep in mind that im a mild case in contrary to people here.
I don’t remember my actual penis size
I don’t remember how hard my erections were
I don’t remember how good an orgasm was
I don’t remember how good it felt even when i take a piss
I don’t remember the sensivity of my penis
I don’t remember how exciting it was to watch a porn
Worst thing is, i got SLOWLY worse, so there wasn’t enough instant changes for me to actually realize what i have lost! I don’t remember any changes on my penis in the first 2 years and then it got slowly worse.
After all these years if i would get better like %90 let’s say. I would probably think that it’s 100%. So, are we telling lies to ourselves? I think this shit is really permanent to some degree.
And the most traumatic thing for me is that this thought: How would i be if i never took this poison. Maybe i would be taller than all of my friends and my penis would be even bigger than pre-pas which that would be insanely good… we had an amazing miracle body and we chemically destroyed it… I can’t hardly satisfy a woman with my new thin, softer penis. I really don’t want to live like this anymore.
If 110% recovery is REALLY possible, i can live with this hope and try things. But even if i recover i would always have this trauma: Did accutane damage my natural growth? Penis growth? Skeletal, structural growth? Would my chin look bigger and more manly if i never took this drug? Etc…
Who can answer these questions for us? No one.
Here is a few possibilities that we have to face with:
- For those who took these drugs before 21, it did really impaired your possible, natural growth and health in all aspects. It’s up to your “luck”.
- 110% recovery is really possible.
- 110% recovery is not possible, only up to %90.