I remember not longer after crash being at work and understanding what it must be like to be the kid in school that just couldn’t get it. That just couldn’t understand the basics. I had to copy some data from one spreadsheet to another, had to email some files to someone.
I could not manage either one day. I took 2 months off work and haven’t ever had the same problem since.
Wether my brain has adapted or I’ve got better may be up for debate but right now, as far as I can tell, I’m cognitively better than I was. In fact I’m better on every front than I was a year ago.
Ultimately, @Blueryan123, you don’t know what’s happened, what is happening and what may or may not be possible. We don’t have that information. What we can tell you is that if you think you’re stuck in the position you’re in right now, it’s not the certainty which you seem to be intent on convincing us all of. There are many reasons to feel optimistic for the future but you need to manage your own mental outlook to some degree. This is not easy and getting into the mindset to fight this will require some intense focus.
From the outset, I told myself that this would not beat me and that I would overcome. Frankly, I struggle. I could do without you seeking out reasons that we’re screwed because even in the face of evidence that I am improving, I still have dark moments. I can’t imagine how bad I could make myself feel if I really focussed on the worst outcomes.