stop being so critical of drug addicts using drugs when their life becomes a shit show. I’d prefer be high, feel alright for abit then detoriate from the drugs if thats how its gonna be
I’ll spend the rest of this time on earth smokinghard drugs and then i’ll either kill myself or die that way. I can’t see myself living this nightmare. I think people just have different capacity to deal with things, this hit me really hard. I’ve always cared very much about my personality, emotions and sex drive. To lose them has made nothing worth it.
I’m literally smoking crystal meth dude, it gives me my old libido back and idek if i die. I’ve had fun being horny this weekend so im probably gonna continue to detoriate I might as well enjoy myself.
Not to mention even meth overpowers wrist and joint pains… I’m painfree on it. Heck i could see myself just giving up and start using it regularly now.
What else do i have left in life? honestly? I had so much, so much. i was off drugs for so long and finally loving my life. then i ruined it all myself by not being satisified with what i already had, i needed hair too! Its not just mercks fault its mine, they want money, cig companies will sell you cancer sticks for money and they tried to convince it was healthy for years!
I think i deserve this in the first place. im a shitty person and this is just gods last push to make me jump off the planet. i dont deserve to live and i deserve pfs tbh
i’ve done nothing but make everyone around mes life a living hell, im so done ill just abuse drugs until i finally end it. Already finished reading the peaceful pill handbook, i think im beyond saving. sorry, hope u live a good life friend.
I MISS MY EMPATHY. ITS NOT RIGHT
Now i get chronic pain and ligaments/tendons are going. Balance is off. FFS I even have to have the worse pfs thing too now. Its my fault. I took the adex, i took steroids that made my hair thin. I DID THIS. I should just stop stressing my family out, kill myself then let them live anormal life in a few years when they get over me.
I wont even be able to go to the gym. That alone isa death sentence.