After taking one pill and waking up impotent, I was obviously devastated. But I realized that was not real impotence. Just no libido, anhedonia and could only get erect through stimulation. This continued for a few weeks, erections getting stronger until I had a sudden libido recovery and could achieve psychogeneic erections with gf and last for ages. Super horny. This partial, but great, recovery last 3 and a half weeks until I crashed while we were in the middle of things. I managed to sustain about 60 % and finished, but after that was completely dead.
6 days have passed and it has turned into complete impotence. Numb penis and smaller than before. Doesn’t even react to stimulation, which it did after my first bad reaction to the pill at least. This morning I managed to stim a firm morning erection for a while, but later in the afternoon, could not even get a semi, with my gf’s help nor myself. Nothing. Lifeless and flat. Even with excessive stim.
I watched porn and managed to finish, get slightly hard when climaxing. Before my partial recovery I would stim quite easily to get bloodflow in there, but now I can’t even do that. Taking cialis of course but not really any help.
Any suggestions? Inital blood tests were all normal, but just went for some more and a prostate exam. Prostate is a little large but nothing to be concerned about apparently.
Any advice or things to calm me down would be appreciated. Feeling suicidal but psychiatrist gave me bupropion and sleeping pills which have zoned me out a bit. (Apologies to all those I’ve bugged on here so far)
My anhedonia is not there like the first time, which makes the realization of my symptoms all the more terrifying. I’m worried about lack of bloodflow. Please shed any wisdom. I’m willing to go all guns blazing if I have to