Living with this messed up mind daily is incredibly hard.
How do you guys make a living, pay the bills, messed up like this?
Bout to get disowned by my family. They do not care (no matter what evidence i present or other) to understand or listen.
Almost every day, I feel like I may drift off into full blown dementia or amnesia most days
How the heck can a guy pay the bills and avoid homelessness in this state?!
Please post. Thanks.
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I am not sure if they are still hiring, but they will again at some point - I have made some money transcribing audio files into text on Rev.com. I recommend it. They pay weekly and you work as much or as little as you want. I am personally about to take a few weekly shifts in a bar because I am doing slightly better mentally (not even close to cured, but I think I could handle the job).
There is also a technical support position that Amazon is hiring for in a lot of states that is all from home. You have to have a PC not a mac. It could turn into a permanent position.
Working from home has helped me out.
I hope everything goes ok for you. I understand where you are at, my families generosity ran out long ago. 
Thank you so much for the feedback!
Robertino- you donāt feel any better? You donāt feel like the cognitive effects are wearing away? I feel in the last year and half that slowly my cognitive symptoms of memory recall, word association, and general thinking skills are getting sharper and sharper every month. I am sorry to hear this, your lack of improvement does seem to run counter to many sufferers on this site who improve dramatically overtime
Fina, this might be the case for you but you need to be careful in declaring it so for everyone else. The most common response seems to be crash then slowly but distinctly improve in many areas. I would say a big majority get better but donāt get anywhere near to where they were prefin, and some donāt improve at all it would appear.
Robertino: I seem to recall you mentioned fasting had helped at some points. I donāt know if you have been following cdnuts in the recovery section, or indeed other postings regarding fasting, but many are having good results going on fairly long fasts (7-14 days at least usually) and then eating a clean diet or supplementing afterwards. Perhaps worth a shot.
Finatruth,
I agree. I am happy you feel better, but I have been off the drug for longer than you and if I have really improved at all, it has been enough to even matter or make me feel any better mentally and physically.
Count yourself extraordinarily lucky.
I live at home with my parents like a fucking loser. They donāt want me here. My grandmother who also lives here is telling my mother she is a terrible parent for allowing me to stay. She is gossiping to all relatives telling them I donāt do anything all day.
Iām so tired of thisā¦ If this is my life forever I donāt even want it anymore
Guys please and holy shit this thread got fucked already with the shit not related! Thanks! 
I know you all mean well, but stick to the topic! I donāt want to become homeless. Ideaās are needed as to how guys with cognitive sides get by! This is an important question and thread I created. To be truthful, I do not want to mentally masturbate as to how and why Iām not getting better any longerā¦I accepted that Iām doomed. I just want to move on and make a living somehow. I am still stuck living at home with an emotionally abusive father. No choice, and thatās the truth. I truly ask this question, because when I leave home (Iāve heard many horror stories from men losing jobs often on this forum - as a result of cognitive sides not dick issues) I never want to come back home ever again or become homeless. I have been put through the ringer since getting sick. Seeing my mom die of cancer for three years while fucked, my dad emotionally abusing me and treating me like shit since, my friends dissing me and abandoning me, because they think iāve gone insane and my family taking the side of my father. Potentially being homeless feeling this way is very real. Many homeless are people who have some sort of mental disturbance(like us) or have a genuine psych disorder. There have to be some jobs out there that might be conducive to suffering with this debilitating condition. To whom it may concern, fuck yes, my cognitive sides are still bad. The cognitive sides are the worst to live with! I just want to move on somehowā¦itās been 5 years.
Have you looked at other issues that have or could have perpetuated your depression / cognitive sides? I am not trying to be mean, trust me, a year ago I would check to see if i locked the front door 10 times before going to bed because I kept on forgetting, but you seem to have extra emotional issues you are facing with your dad and the passing of your mom. You may want to explore that. In any event I hope you do start feeling better
Finatruth this thread is for men who have serious cognitive side effects, not blow hards who want to feel like they are part of something.
Get the message and FUCK OFF
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I donāt have any depression! This is a complete cognitive shift that Iām suffering with! I totally agree with Dr. P. Murali Doraiswamy.
"P. Murali Doraiswamy, M.D., a professor and leading neuropsychiatric drug safety researcher at Duke University Medical Center, commented; āThis is a very timely and insightful report. While the warning signals in this report donāt necessarily prove a causal relationship, they are often the first sign of such a link. Therefore, it is critical for consumers and prescribers to be aware of such potentially adverse effects. Some of these side effects - AMNESIA, can have a devastating impact on a personās quality of life.ā
Yes, my memory is abnormally dementia terrible. I would say it definitely is a form of amnesia or dementia, and not depression. It is absolutely life changing[- for the worse! The truth is, that finasteride has messed up my brain very badly somehow. Well, put it this way, if you got out a bad car wreck, with part of your brain missing, you would notice something is wrong, right?! Sure, the other painful things Iāve suffered through, and continue to suffer through donāt make it easier, BUT, you still know your brain and consciousness is scary different, and THAT is the core issue, that is preventing me from functioning and living somehow.
It doesnāt go away, and Iāve been searching for ways to live somehow in this altered state. Realistically, and thanks to the greedy banksters, the US economy, and job market, work culture in the US, is still fān terrible to begin with, even when your healthy, especially in the northeastā¦So, I just thought I would ask for creative ideasās and feedback.
I wonder how many guys who have severe debilitating cognitive sides became homeless? This is a very real problem that can happen!
I think this is a very valuable friend to many. The best we can do is help support each other and I agree that there are so many men who are so severely effected by sides that they cannot work in most environments. I STRONGLY encourage people to check out rev.com. I just checked, and they are accepting applicants. You get paid weekly. If you can type fast, you can easily make $15/hr. Which isnāt much, but can really add up the more work you put in. Perhaps some could even supplement it with some part-time work. Like I said, I just took a job bar backing a couple of days a week. The tips are great and the work isnāt too terrible. I am spent by the end of it, but I just keep busy and āfake it until I make it.ā
If I can impart anything on any one of you, I want it to be this: Donāt let this stupid drug destroy you. Do not let it force you out onto the street. Fight it with everything youāve got. There are so many resources that can help you get on your feet these days. So many companies are offering work-from-home positions including telesales, tech support, transcription, photography, etc. Look into companies like Getty Images, Amazon, Boeing, etc. for work-from-home opportunities. They can often be a life changer.
Granted, my cognitive sides have improved over the last six months, but I am by no means cured. What is most crippling is the fatigue and the insomnia. Brain fog is still present, just not as bad. And I consistently went in and asked for work at my favorite bar. The pay is excellent, the owner takes GREAT care of his people, and the competition is intense. And after two years of asking and asking and asking - taking no for an answer, but still trying againā¦ I finally just got offered a position. I am just crawling out of my bottom. I am 27 and havenāt had my own place for a year now. Iāve lived in my sisters basement and my dads house. It is awful. Pull yourself out. If I can do it, anybody can. Trust me. I know how hard it is. Get at me if you need support.
ALL MY BEST.
Again, itās awesome hearing what some are doing to get by. You are an inspiration!
The idea behind the creation of this thread, was to establish some sort of a āhuman faceā, as to how you guys ācut the mustardā, or when it comes to paying bills with brain fog / cognitive sides. Not easy at all and life changing!
I myself work with a friend from time to time doing labor helper type work. When I was healthy I worked in the tech field.
Robertino,
I am better mentally now, but in a very bad phase of cognitive issues, i got a job delivering pizza. I got short shifts, 4 to five hours. Tips were good and the mental issues did not get in the way. Most of the time i was in my car, and the time i had to spend with custumers was very little.
Agreed, delivery is a great thing to do because itās independent. I think a lot of independent work is good for cognitive impairment issues. Low stress also. I am currently looking for something like this as well.
I hear where you are coming from in regards to friends, family, my girlfriend being fed up, and can relate. Exercising has helped me a great deal lately in confidence and feeling good in order to accomplish other things. Taking classes right now and not far from finishing degree. But doing what is manageable.
This is NOT depression for many, including myself. I remember exactly how it happened, and where I was when my ānew brain and altered frightening consciousnessā set in after stopping the poison a month prior. It was scary and still is! How I manage to live like this is a mystery. This is a new consciousness for many - a complete disconnect, similar to schizophrenics (from what a therapist told me recently), where objects/people/environments as interpreted, by your eyes, and brain merge together in this total numbness world, and there is no distinction between anything. A type of anedonia or an altered state of mind while conscious. Schzophrenics have this. Could definitely be described as a form of partial amnesia, as Dr. P. Murali Doraiswamy, M.D. stated; " Some of these side effects - amnesia, can have a devastating impact on a personās quality of life."
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Does this describe depression? Go shake merckās hand and props inventor, and lick the depression label!
Forum member, tim1911, says its the same for him, as well as member japanther and the member from Lousiana(forgot his name). What about PFS foundations founders son, Randy? Didnāt he state, that he lived in a mentally crippled state where he had trouble recognizing his parents towards the end? Read the research. āPropecia is a rare drug that can actually alter brain chemistryā - Dr. Irwig.
The drug did this to me and nothing else. Total consciousness shift.
All the other shit in my life, is just extra bullshit, that I deal with on top of being mentally disabled, because of propecia. End of story.