Can't Catch a Break. I Quit.

General Discussion
#1

Hey guys,

So overall my symptoms had a good month last month, and I wouldn’t even say I’m at my worst. But I’m done. I had bloodtests after begging doctor to test for estrogen, cortisol and vitamin D. He checked for everything including shit I didn’t even want done and then I ask about cortisol and estrogen and he cant find the results. I honestly quit. Fuck doctors. Fuck Merck. Fuck this shit. I honestly hope I have tonnes of estrogen and it causes me to have a massive fucking heart attack and my family sues the fuck out of my doctor. Honestly, I have shot my chance at having kids (semen has been reduced for a year now), my dick and libido never really came back except for a brief period last month. Who gives a fuck. Im too pussy to off myself but maybe with some luck and mercy I will have a stroke or some shit. Im gonna start smoking a pack a day and eating the worste shit possible in hopes that I can just kill myself that was in the next year or too. Might start taking some heavy drugs too and just live as unhealthy as possible.

Everyone should just quit. We won’t find a cure because doctors dont give a fuck. Even though I am having an okay month symptom wise I am just fed up. A year of my 20’s flushed down the fucking toilet with stress, depression and physical pain all because a stupid castrating hairloss drug. I hope the merck filth that sells this shit gets dragged out onto a street infront of his family and castrated with a pair of fucking hedgeclippers.

#2

Man I feel the same way.
A year out of my 20s has already been wiped and who knows how many more.
I don’t know how the guys who’ve lived with this for years do it, fair play to them.
I’m at my wits end and every fucking day is a struggle.
Ill never accept this shit.
I’m on the verge of throwing the towel in meself.
There’s only so much poxy misery, regret and anger that you can take.
Id rather be a junkie cos at least you know you get healthier when you get off the drug.

#3

Well that makes 3 of then

I’m doing the Boston study later his month then i’m done.

Not putting up with one more day of misery like this!!!

#4

Yea same here. I don’t see how these guys lasted years. Im at 2 years off. I tried to go off zoloft for a couple of days. Feeling better sexually, but my mind is fucked. Hollow skull feeling, no emotions. Also I have a strange sense of guilt like I cant look people in the eye. Like they will know how fucked I am and I feel constant worry/guilt like ive done something terrible. I have done something terrible. I gambled away my life by taking propecia. I feel unnatural and alien. Ready to die. Quit zoloft, I get sexual relief but unbearable mental sides. Take zoloft, I get mental relief but castration is worsened. Also my face and looks have gone. I really dont have anything to live for anymore. Atleast I have the power to end it which I will soon.

#5

And any fucker that tells me to hang in there or that things get better with time are full of bull shit.

Maybe for you but you are not me !!!

I probably have the worst penile damage (shrinkage, narrowing) than anybody here and I can tell you it’s not getting better over time, in fact quite the fucking opposite

My mental sides have eased a little but still not how a healthy human being should be living

A promise I’ve made to myself is not to post crap here about ending it but putting these promises into actions which is exactly what I will be doing in the month or so.

I’m tired of this condition, nobody knows how bad I have it!

We all have varying degrees of PFS, Well let me tell you, I have the fucking lot in abundance and it’s not fair living like this and yes I have kids who probably won’t understand but over time things will get easier for them.

So it’s to the studies in Boston then I’m quitting

Nobody can say I’ve not done my bit to help with the studies or raise awareness now all I want is understanding and forgiveness to be left to rest in peace

#6

My 6 year old son was around me when this happened. ~ 90 days after I crashed he started complaining of penis pain. He also told me he thought he was dreaming while awake. He has had digestive troubles also. Drinking water like crazy. What the FUCK! He never took the shit! It’s one thing for me to get sick. How in the hell!!! I feel powerless. I can’t bare this burden. I deserve to die for this.

#7

Count me in…

#8

Don’t drop out now, when things are really getting going. Did you not see the Foundation annual update… There are two more studies coming, and the results from the current two are on schedule.

In the address the Foundation are telling us about research projects to lay foundations for treatment.

#9

I’m in regular contact with the foundation and I’m doing Boston study so I’m full apraised of recent developments

These treatments and potential cures are not going to come soon enough for me I’m afraid

#10

If it would help them, I would move into the university. Many of us are basically disabled by this anyway. Flying back and forth for study after study isn’t very practical in this state.

#11

scaredoutofmymind - don’t go out anonymous. Can you post before and after pics? People need to see what they have done to us. I want to see you, so I recognize you in heaven or hell. Wherever we end up.

#12

I know its hard guys but don’t give up now… Have any of u tried ed meds so u can at least feel normal again?? I know its not gonna fix anything but it could still help

#13

Me healthy and haply before fin

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#14

What about after pics?

#15

Me after this poison.

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#16

Holy shit man

You don’t look like the same guy!!!

Facially, belly etc

These pics are shocking!!!

#17

i know its depressing to see. I fear I will never be the same again.

#18

What’s really interesting is we all have petty much the same type of hairline, receding a bit

#19

Yes mines the same, no bald spots or patches just slight recession.

You seen my pics Fina?

#20