My name’s Nick, I’m 23 and I’ve recently had my life destroyed. I feel incredibly helpless and hopeless, I didn’t even think it was possible to feel like this. I can’t go back in time (I know we all wish we could) and I’m having a lot of trouble coping. Long story short, I was noticing some slight hair thinning, went to a dermatologist who then prescribed me generic Finasteride 1mg. I was apprehensive to take this medication after hearing everything about it. He assured me it was safe to take… all that bullshit. I’d been researching this medication, I knew about PFS but it seemed incredibly rare according to “science.” I decided to stay away from forums like this so that I didn’t give myself the “nocebo effect.” And I stupidly took the plunge. I took it for 4 days for a total of 4 pills (May 18-May 21).
I noticed slight brain fog immediately, took it for 3 more days and just decided it wasn’t worth the risk. But I guess it was too late. On the 19th, I graduated from my university. It was something I looked forward to my whole life, and it ended up being one of the worst days of my life for no reason. I just felt so down, my girlfriend even rented a hotel out for us to celebrate. But I couldn’t shed this feeling of misery that hit me like a train out of nowhere. We had sex that night, noticed some watery ejaculate, heard that was common. Anyway, I stopped the medication soon after and everything fucking changed. I couldn’t sleep, my heart was constantly racing, I had anxiety and confusion unlike anything I’d ever felt before. I went a few days with no sleep before I asked my girlfriend to take me to the ER because I just couldn’t take it. I knew I was experiencing the “crash.” It’s now been almost two months since all of this. I feel very sick, fatigued, depressed. It’s ruined my relationship, my full-time job is on line now. This whole thing is a nightmare, and to be honest, I don’t know how much more I can take of it. I’m turning to this forum because I don’t know what to do. I don’t have a good support system. I’m incredibly saddened to see how many of you are suffering. The worst is everyone saying “it’s in your head.” I always had a problem my whole life where I felt alone, but now it’s unbearable. I feel like I lost my humanity and I feel no emotions besides sadness, guilt, and pure regret. This is not a way to live.