Whats up everybody, I may have stumbled on something that can help all of us out.
Just like everybody else here we have become hypersensitive of our brains and bodies, noticing every little thing that is different from Pre-5ari days.
I took dutast for 3 years and when I got off from it my entire endo crashed and my brain practically stopped working. Call it brain fog, dementia, brain disconnected from brain, depression, memory loss, slurring words, vocabulary loss, lack of reading and writing, flat emotions, suicidal thoughts, insomnia, anxiety…etc.etc…I had it all 24 hours a day 7 days a week.
Luckily I met Dr. Goldstein and with his PFS protocol I have recovered 50% to 60% mentally from what my brain used to act like.
Something that I have not recovered yet is something that a few of us PFS suffers deal with which started when I stopped dutast.
I used to get super happy drunk with 2-3 cups of vodka. Now I can drink a bottle of Vodka and be dead sober and not happier.
Adderal, Red Bull, Coffee used to affect me a lot and was very sensitive to it. Even diet coke gave me the jitters and insomnia. I used to take 5 to 10mg of adderal and I was wide awake, happpy high and my brain was super sharp. Once I took 25mg of Adderal and I lost my mind on it. Now I can take 30 to 40 mg of Adderal and nothing, I can go to sleep on it. One cup of coffee used to wake me up and give me hard core jitters. Now I can drink 5 cups and nothing happens, except pressure in my chest. This is not due to tolerance, I rarely take uppers.
Xanax used to work on me, but now Xanax does not work with me anymore as well.
So I hypnotized that there is something wrong with my Serotonin levels due to Alcohol and Adderal not having an effect on me anymore. Either I have low Serotonin levels or my Serotonin receptors are shut off. My guess was that even MDMA and Extacy will not have the same effect on my brain like it used to or have zero effect on me.
I began the experiment with one pill/dose of very good Molly or MDMA. I have only taken Exctacy 3 times in my life before dutast and all three times I rolled for over 6 hours with the happiest high on earth. This time when I took MDMA I rolled for only around 45 minutes, where as everybody else around me with the same pill rolled easily over 4 hours. I took a double dose of MDMA 2 hours after I stopped rolling the first time with ZERO effect.
The second day I took one powerful Extacy pill. I had ZERO effects while taking this Extacy. The same pill had an extremely powerful effect on the people by me, some only taking half a pill and rolling for 6 hours hard, some rolling so hard they lost their mind. But for me, NOTHING. So I took a double dose of MDMA 2 to 3 hours later and I rolled a little bit for 4 hours.
The third day I took half a pill of E, 4 doses of MDMA and 30mg of Adderal with ZERO effects. The same people by me were rolling their balls of taking only 1 MDMA or half a pill of the same E pill. I took enough drugs within 4 hours to make 8 big adults high all night with zero effect, no hand shaking, not sweating, brain still the same, not waking up…etc…etc.
2 days later the “Tuesday Blues” hit me very very hard. Its when you finally get off the drugs and you have crashed your Serotonin levels and now you have to deal with depression, sadness and anxiety till you recover your Serotonin levels.
All the brain fog, dementia, brain disconnect, depression, out of focus, lack of emotions came back hard core just like the past and I freaked out, hoping I did not cause permanent brain damage/fog just like I was like when I got off dutast.
I went to the store and bought 100mg pills of 5-HTP. Recreational drug user who use Molly/MDMA and E take 5-HTP to combat Serotonin loss and help recover their Serotonin levels.
My theory was that 5-HTP would help me recover from the massive brain fog, brain disconnect, depression and take be back on the right track again. I took 100mg in the morning and 100mg before sleeping. Taking 100mg in the mornings made me so drowsy that I could not drive, so I lay on the couch all day to recover.
After 5 days on 5-HTP all my symptoms of brain fog, depression, brain disconnect disappeared and I actually felt better than the day before my drug experiment.
Ever since getting off dutast I have had insomnia and Xanax stopped working on me. But last night I took 200mg of 5-HTP and I slept so deep, so beautiful, so relaxing, such beautiful happy dreams, so warm,… that I woke up refreshed like I slept for 20 hours straight. Usually I wake up early mornings with heart pounding and anxiety taking over, but this time I woke up with a bright smile, my entire body being relaxed like I had a full body massage, and even morning birds giving me goosebumps. My only thought was, “Isn’t life great”. I have not felt this way in years.
I feel so good this morning that I had to share this with everybody. Does a 5ari also effect our Serotonin levels to a point of causing depression, anxiety, insomnia, brain fog? Can 5-HTP help alleviate all the brain side effects of 5ari?
I know that 5 alpha reductase is responsible for many neurosteroids such as Allopregnanolone and THDOC which helps us with cognition and happiness. But what if we fin/dutast also crashes our Serotonin levels too. At least we can combat the lack of Serotonin with 5-HTP.
I know recreational drugs such as MDMA and extacy are bad for you, but I had to test my theory and learning how to recover better.
I wish everybody a fast recovery.