It is an amazing little thing, isn’t it?
Last nite, while I was laying in bed trying to fall asleep, something happened to me that hasn’t happened in a very long time. My mind started wandering as I was trying to ignore the high pitched ringing in my head and my thoughts turned to a woman I had seen on TV before retireing for the night. I was wearing my zinger of course, as I do most every nite and then it happened…I started fantasizing about her and WANTING her. A couple minutes later and I had a full blown erection…while laying flat on my back!
This hasn’t happened to me in YEARS. I usually use porn or some other type of visual aid, but last nite I used just my head, like I used to. I was happy about the experience and contented for quite some time afterwords. I finished myself off of course and had a pretty decent orgasm.
I am going in the right direction, and have been for sometime. Whether or not I’ll be “normal” again remains to be seen, but I’m guessing probably not. I may always have a bit of “static” in the lines, but that doesn’t mean I’m ever going to stop trying to get there. Where I am now health wise is good and is a direct consequence of my actions up to this point, but I feel I’ve suffered brain damage from fin. My Gaba channels particularly. I would love to have those pristine thoughts and brain function back. Quiteness of mind and serenity. I’ll take what I’ve got, no doubt, and always try and get more.
My point is, something as small and insignificant as a peice of latex tubing and two metal rods can add so much quality to the life that we have. Why not take it if it’s there for the taking? I’m betting your T goes back up Bostonusa once you’ve used the zinger for a week or two. I have no doubts, but please keep us posted.