Hi guys,
This post is about my sexual life so if you think you will feel gay reading it stop now. Its now been exactly one month since i have had an orgasm. I have been masturbating every day or so, but only mildly just for fun. The crappy feeling downstairs made me decide to abstain just to see what would happen. I didn’t think it would fix me or anything, but i hoped that my body would get annoyed at me for not releasing any tadpoles and kick up my hormones a notch. To my knowledge i haven’t had a wet dream, in fact i don’t ever remember having one in my life which is strange? I kept masturbating to make sure i could still get a boner alright as i wanted to keep the pipes working so to speak. I seem to have enough control to do this, but i have nearly had accidents along the way.
In the first week i felt like there was a blockage downstairs. My package had a numb kind of feeling / ache and it was very tempting to rub one out to get rid of that feeling. I pushed through it, and that feeling subsided. At the end of the first week i had a burst of libido (still only 40% ish), but it was nice anyway. I haven’t been having morning erections at all, except for the last few days where i have had one each day. A couple of times i have had some libido back though, and a desire and confidence to have sex. Ive found myself flirting mildly and very occasionally. This is one of the only times ive actually had libido since the whole ordeal. Erection quality is quite good. It takes me a little while to get it up to full pelt, but basically for the last 3 weeks its been at 90% strength. Its the same erection every day, there is absolutely no variability. Ive had stronger ones in the past, but its quite satisfactory. This is what gives me confidence for sex. I think i could do the job fine right now, which is a nice feeling, but i may be a one shot wonder however. The sensitivity of the downstairs area has increased dramatically. The feeling down there is very good and enjoyable. I don’t know what balls are supposed to be like, but mine are always quite solid nowadays. Presumably because i am backed up quite bad haha. My mood is exceptionally stable. I feel quite confident and calm every day. One surprising change is i have had girls checking me out again. Its almost as if they can sense im ready to blow and want to help me out.
So its been a decent experiment so far. Its not actually very hard once you break that week barrier. In fact, im aiming for 2 - 3 months i think. In all honestly, i don’t think its going to cure me, but i don’t think its done any harm at all. Im still holding out a little hope that its done some good for me, because it has been a positive experience so far. I would guess that my test level has increased to some degree.