Hi there PAS and welcome to the forum.
Thanks a lot for sharing with us your experiences with accutane and for providing such a detailed account. I’m really sorry that accutane has had such a negative impact on your life. Although it has impacted tremendously on some of your formative years you are still a very young man, although I know that doesn’t take away what you have lost. Try also to not carry the burden of how what has happened to you is or will impact your parents. I’m sure that they wouldn’t want you to suffer more through worrying about them worrying about you. I know that it is a vicious circle. Maybe if you had a friend or a medical professional to talk to it might lessen that burden somewhat. As you may know the pfs foundation are funding studies which are already bearing fruit and as a community there are also initiatives taking place: Important Announcement: Two Community-Led Research Projects - Please Participate so hope has never been so tangible.
Your joining the community is part of that movement towards us all getting better.