A feeling of living again

The first time in 8 months I gathered up every ounce of energy I had and went bowling even though I was in a complete haze I found myself laughing and cracking jokes it was the first time my mind was off this illness and I felt a sense of normalcy. Even though I’m in such a bad state I never felt more proud of myself- fighting this devil one day at a time.


Hey man I’m in the haze with you and I only took two doses. It’s been 1.5 years of horrid hazy vision/perception, headaches and head pressure and a whole host of other things. Staying social has helped a lot.


Did you crash a few weeks after? This is what happened to me haven’t been right ever since. That was the first time I socialised in 8 months felt like I was spaced out but was great to get out.

I crashed after two pills. Felt funny after the first, so took a day off. Then stupidly took it again. The next morning I woke up and couldn’t walk I was so dizzy and disoriented. Like when a bomb goes off in a war movie. Now, 1.5 years later I still feel the same way with slightly less intensity.

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Exact same it’s like throwing a spanner into an engine and the whole thing breaks apart my gut feeling told me not to take it I even had a dream that this would be my worst year ever. So you haven’t seen no improvements in 1.5 years?

I’ve seen some improvements for sure - I’m super social again - the voice in my head came back (before I was like lobotomized), and I don’t have as much trouble making eye contact (before it was as if I was watching a bad voice over when someone talked to me). These improved, but the turned down perception, visual issues, poor eye focus, etc have not gotten better. I also still have some head pressure and I don’t really respond to alcohol or coffee like I used 2.

Same brother alcohol doesn’t make me chilled out anymore I get mad palpitations. Eye focus is the worst it’s like my mind is lagging behind a split second then catches up too late like the processor is bust feels like I went 10 rounds with rocky lol pure ridiculous it seems to amplify in supermarkets.


Exactly the same re: supermarkets

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