Happy new year everyone. It’s best to try and stay upbeat as possible with all this. It’s very easy to go down a dark, lonely and angry path with all this but that is really going to to be to the detriment to yourself as well as others.
There is so much i/ we could be doing in 2012 - creating more awareness in the media and the medical professions, forming action groups in our own countries/states, engaging with research bodies, following our litigation battles. If we can find the time, then great, but it’s not easy when we have our ‘normal lives’ to lead as well as battling the symptoms we have all been left with. For example, now and again i have these battles with myself on the absurdness of it all and how i ended up in this mess. This is totally debilitating.
The one thing i’m going to definitely try and highlight on this forum and to other medical professionals and researchers, is the experience i had with tamoxifen. I took it 3 months after crashing after reading various reports on this forum on how it could be our only chance of recovery. To my utter amazement, it did cure me, albeit for 3 weeks before i crashed again and the returning of previous symptoms but to a lesser extent. I’ve posted my experience in other posts so i won’t go in to it again on here, but i strongly feel this is a major discovery and we are all very lucky i had this experience with tamoxifen. Tamoxifen is fairly well researched drug and many AR specialists seem to be working with it. If my experience can somehow inform researchers and medical experts on possible mechanisms for PFS and possible areas of research to cure it, well we have probably moved many steps forward to having a cure for all of us. I’m especially hoping Awor and his research group can use my experience to help get a positive result for all of us.
At the same time i am keeping my expectations in check. Even if we nailed the mechanism and cause, it might be very difficult to find a cure. I try and tamoxifen now again to see if the same positive effect can be achieved as the first time, but nothing is happening. Maybe i have missed my chance and the rumour on these forums that a full recovery can only be achieved if you take tamoxifen and clomid early after crashing the first time, is correct. The best i could then hope to achieve would then be to inform new crashers and get them cured. But at least that would confirm my experience as not a one off and something to be investigated further. However, with all the coverage propecia is gaining now, i can’t see that we will have that many more new PFS cases, as surely people will 1. realise not to take the stuff in the first place and 2. if you are already on it, to take care off yourself and wean off when coming off it.
Last thing, we are really going to be much more stronger and efficient when we starting working together more. If we can form action groups of 10, 50, 100 people who live close to one another, i’m sure we can achieve more and in a quicker timeframe than 1000s of single forum posters posting randomly whenever they feel like it. It just seems enough info has been shared on the board and we are just going over the same stuff. I don’t have the time to co-ordinate a UK based group at the moment, but if any other British bulldogs wants to get the ball rolling, i will be there in flesh and in spirit. Then hopefully American states and other countries will follow suit. It could mean quarterly or even annual meetings to discuss action plans in our respective areas and then discussion (on this board) between the various groups on these actions and results being achieved. Maybe 2013 will be the year for action groups, after we have seen where Awor’s research group are taking us.