20 years old - 15 months off

Here is a list of my symptoms since I crashed in mid March 2025:

. Insomnia - I typically sleepy for 2/3 hours and then do not fall back to sleep. Natural tiredness and fatigue has disappeared.

. Anhedonia - I have felt genuine joy and reward at all since I crashed. I do not feel any high from exercise and I cannot feel any buzz from alcohol.

. Penis and testicle tissue and skin changes and abnormality - totally dry, shrunken substantially, loss of colour to the point where it looks completely dead.

. Dry skin / no sebum - every part of my body is dry. If I rub my face, my chest, my pubic hair, then white flakes appear and float into the air. My hands, if I sweat, want a white substance that feels like chalk.

. Body oils have turned into white flakes. Eye goop in the morning and eye wax is now white flakes to the point it looks like paint.

. Asexuality - as soon as I crashed I lost all libido and desire for sex.

. Numb skin and muscles - this varies in severity but often my skin everywhere feels half numb. I feel detached from my own muscles and fascia. It’s like I’m a ghost.

. Lack of sweating but when I do sweat the smell is disgusting - when I sweat from my body the smell is sickly. The only time I have smelt this odour was when I was in a hospital with lots of elderly people, I think it may have been a palliative care unit.

In the last 3 days i have slept the most since my crash in mid March

3 days ago - 4 hours consecutive sleep hours plus fell asleep into crazy constant dream sleep for an hour

2 days ago - 4.5 hours consecutive

1 day ago - 5 hours consecutive plus an hour maybe of interrupted constant dream sleep

I am waking up in the night with strong erections, albeit they are half numb and with dry skin

Given the scale of sleep deprivation I have experienced. I’m very hopeful that if I continue to sleep and my sleep drive is restored. I should see more benefits.

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After these longer sleeps I’ve noticed some yellow head spots on my nose.

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Sleep drive being restored and positive response to exercise I believe would be a crucial step in any recovery

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