Just thought I’d update for anyone who’s interested.
Last pill was on September 10th 2019.
Since the summer things have been improving ten fold for me. I wanted to wait a while before I posted …as PFS can be very episodic but enough time has passed now where I truly see myself out of the darkness and hell I was in .
Of course , not 100%… but sometimes I think nostalgia and reflections of how we were once are often ‘screen memories’ anyway, I have to ask myself even before a prescription medication messed me up was I truly ever operating at 100% anyway? Most likely not.
So , this is controversial perhaps but I have to say Mirtazapine has been the biggest factor in me improving. Within 2 weeks of use it seemed to reset sleep for me. I now get 6-7 hours each night with less awakening then I have ever had in my life.
Slight weight gain (went from 11st to 12st) but aside from that no issues.
I’m on 7 -8 months of using that now and I think also time has helped, as well as finally getting sleep to restore things.
I also have not stopped exercising the whole time . A mix of cardio and resistance.
Although I feel the cardio has probably reset me more , my body has put on muscle from the resistance. Psychologically this helps, as a changing body indicated to me that things inside me are being reset and finally working as they should .
I have also prayed a lot and focused on quiet time, reflections daily . Spirituality can help the mental sides too.
As all this has been going on the tinnitus has decreased in volume , it’s still there unfortunately but I can live with it being quiet.
Libido and erections have improved markedly, although they still can be soft , I’ve had moments where it’s back to its best with full morning wood, pleasureful orgasms.
Gone are those times of pleasureless orgasm and a wispy little ejaculate would come out . That was bloody awful. I feel ready to seek a relationship with a woman , and although I’m not 100% I think my current state is good to go.
Hopefully now after posting this I won’t relapse ! 
but I don’t really believe in tempting fate anyways, I prayed to be delivered from this hell and I pray the same for all of you people , who have helped me so much over the past 2+ years. If this post gives you a small piece of hope then I’m happy .
My suggestions are keep going no matter what, believe that there is a day you will feel not cured but just ‘better’ . Use minimal medications , focus on exercise and hobbies/passions if possible, I’m sure this helps rewire some of the messed up dopamine signaling , step by step.
