I have zero sexual attraction, and zero sexual response to anything in my genitals. I used to be a very horny straight man, now girls are about as attractive as rocks or men to me- zero. I have mental sides too. I was 21 with a perfect sat score. Now my life is ruined and not getting any better. I was depressed and anxious about losing my hair before, but I was sexually attracted to girls. When I got sad, I was capable of truly feeling sad and crying about it. Nowadays I don’t even feel feelings anymore. I never get sad enough to cry. I’m just empty.
I have seen countless doctors, who all but laughed at me, and I have some specialist appointments coming up. I don’t know what to do at this point but kill myself. I won’t live a sexless and sexual attraction-less life. Its been 9 months. I’m this close to killing myself. I can’t be alive this way. I will wait out the year to see if anything gets better but after that i’m done. I haven’t had any improvement in months. It feels like all the pleasures of life were robbed from me at the age of 21. I don’t know what to do.
Mate, I know it is hard and horrendeous… Most of us are right here at the moment. I am and it has been a month and I have been through a massive load of shitty effects…
Being “empty” is the worse… I haven’t listened to my massive record collection for a month… It is depressing…
Now one note the suicide thing: I can get it but it is a hard thing to do…
I have been here too and actually doing it is something different. Keep in mind you could end up EVEN WORSE than what you are now…Think about it.
It is life changing condition and accepting it is massive challenge.
Please don’t do anything silly.
You can PM me anytime if you need to unload.
Best.
I was at that point too 3 years ago. I only got better after trying some supplements. Have you tried anything so far?
But don’t worry man. I was 100% asexual for 3 months, then made huge progress and now my libido is 100% recovered.
And look for a PFS friendly doctor. Explain, bring the scientific facts this condition is more than a hypochondriac delirium… What are your blood results? Are there any signs that show proof you can justify the state you are in?
I know a lot of people try things. I have not yet.
AGAIN: reach out to the community when things are at a low…
No after 3 months of zero libido I made some progress for the first time. So I went from 0 to 50% libido and it stayed like that for 1 year.
In the following 2 years my libido improved to 100% after countless supplement and hormone cycles.
Ive tried mediherb tribulus, ashwaghanda fish oil. Nothing. I need to feel life pulse through my genitals again. Everyone is moving on and i had so much potential. Now i can’t build out mental constructions of concepts of things I read. That used to be my strength. I lost my cognitive abilities and all pleasure from erection. I have had no improvement in months. Idk what to do
That sucks. I lost the majority of my ability to visualize too. Used to be able to have romantic interludes with women in my imagination that were more realistic and stimulating than the real thing is for me. An unreal side effect.
Have you tried a daily low dose Cialis? If you can tolerate it, it will give you some spontaneous erections which will partially recreate the feeling of sexual attraction. Some people do very well on it. Be careful with it though and start very low because the side effects can be very bad (low blood pressure).
Tribulus also does nothing for me, unless I use a very high dose like 3000 mg a day. It is a complicated subject though - whether you should take it or not.
Other than that - you are so young. Don’t give up! You may recover or improve in the years to come. Even if you don’t, you can afford to wait 20 years for a cure and still begin a great sexual and romantic life at 41. That’s not as bad as it sounds, trust me.
Are you serious? I could never live 20 years with zero libido. Not even 1 year. For me 3 months with zero libido was enough, I was willing to do anything to get my libido back and bought progesterone cream and tribulus.
stop talking about killing yourself dude, theres far too much upside on our side in the near future for you to do that.
This is bringing me improvements
- 200mg progesterone rectally or under the tongue.
- BHB powder
- Ghee
- Boron
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10 years of FPS and I feel something is changing. Its not 100% or even 50%. Just 30% but it’s really something after all those years.
I’m using Prep and others drugs but I really think progesterone/bhb/ghee/boron is the cure for me.
I won’t say it will be the cure for you. But you can try instead of killing yourself.
Don’t give up so easily.
Suing Merck should be your number 1 priority. Then seek help after you get your compensation to live your life and try therapies. Trust me I’ve been in it for 6 years and counting. Just Google the nearest lawyer and they’ll take care of everything for you. If you wait too long, typically more than a year, you can’t sue anymore.
Hi @Xorack and @Finnigan, would you mind filling out our Patient Survey? It can be accessed through the bar-graph icon at the top of your screen after you have posted a member story, and remember, the survey can be halted at any time and continued at a later time/date.
It will be another step toward establishing the legitimacy of persistent post-drug side effects and another step toward the understanding we need to find a cure.
From what I hear no one got any significant money from doing this
I wouldnt want money, just to force them to release documents, or put money toward research. I wouldnt even want personal money.
Word.
Definitely, but it would be nice to receive something for fucking up my life plus the money could be used towards research
Taking Merck’s money is the only thing that will make them listen. Plus they deserve to support you after all this. People receive millions in damages for stupid shit compared to this.
If more people do it, more professionals will pay attention to it. Eventually it will snowball into something significant.