my urologist is funny.
testosterone fine
shgb fine.
he tested only these 2 things.
next year im gonna find a new urologist.
i told him that i am depressed and have less desire to girls.
i asked him if he knows what propecia is and he smiled. he said yes.
then i told him that i have taken this drug.
i thought he exactly knows what should be tested.
then he tested this 2 things…
are you wrting a poem here?
i am sooooo feared about my situation. i am totally depressed. if i hadnt the support of my dad i would end up in the gutter.
if i write a poem?
no man.
ok i called the doctor again.
here we go
[b]testosterone : 16.6 nmol/l
shgb : 18.5 nmol/l
[/b]
i just did a hard work out with heavy weight lifting to boost my testosterone.
i got dry lipps and dry eyes.
i usually get these side effects after ejaculating.
this poison is still inside my body after 5 months off…
please let this depression go away.
i am thinking the worst things could happen to me almost all time.
almost only negative thoughts…
here i have a new bad story …
today i was in the swimming bath for relaxation…
i went to a whirlpool and i sat down.
next to me there was a quite attractive milf with nice rounded butt .
very booty. i noticed her only because of her enourmus ass.
there were also other girls but THERE WAS NO REACTION in my brain.
in the whirlpool i got a boner and my body felt warm.
but i could not talk to her because i was so fucking brainfoged and depressed and had no fucking confidence.
then i stroke her outside her thight 2 times.
the water was bubbleing and so noone else could see it…
when i touched her first time she only looked at me very woundered.
like if you want to touch me then DO IT LIKE A MAN.
the second time i touched her , she cringed but only the second time.
because the first time she was looking at me if i would smile to her or something. say something nice to her.
i felt horny again after so much time since i quit.
i know she was horny too. but there was no communication and maybe she thought i am a pervert or a freak or something like that…
whatever, after that i stroke her feet again and she cringed a second time . she was very confused and nervous.
the bubble stoped and she went outside with a very angry face quickly.
god this made my depression worse.
another fucked up experience with a woman
first i have no libido .
then i feel so horny that i have to grobe the woman underwater like a fucking nerd.
i want to feel normal.
to be continued…
ok after a few more months i feel much better.
but when i masturbate i loose all my motivation.
and when i masturbate after that i feel a little depressed but not as much as after quitting the drug.
when i masturbate twice a day i also get panic attacks in the night , maybe 1-3 .
but much better than whole night like at beginning the nightmare.
anyway i am becoming better and doing sports and try to eat healthly.
omega 3 fish oil helped a lot i think to fight against depression brainfog and my whole situation.
i wake up in the morning and feel ok 
i also have much stress in my life maybe thats the reason why woman are not that attractive for me sometimes specially after jerking.
well somethimes they are but not all time . i dont know its very mystical.
it is funny to see how stupid girls really are when you are anti sexual. but it is also easier to understand them, when you are not thinking with your dick .
ok thats all what i have learnt at this experience of fucking bitch propecia destroyed my life thing.
to be continued…
I would restrain yourself from masturbating 2x/day if it brings on panic attacks. It sounds like the trend for you is up, which is great news. Just keep at it, and stick to a healthy diet!
Well hi guys.
Now it has been 3 and a half year past since my off.
Things are good now. 90% or so I am cured I would say
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can you grow full beard?
My metabolism crashed. My hormones aren’t running properly. Though yes I can grow full beard, why???
It takes 2 months then I have a full beard.
Could you grow a full beard before finasteride? I am asking as an indicator.
Yes I could. The first 2 years I quitted I was weak in muscle no motivation and that kind of stuff.
Then things became better. Lots of sleep, lots of time past.
Currently my body hairgrown is related to my metabolism. Good running metabolism= more facial and body hair .
Ok thanks for the reply. I am also a 3+ years quitter. And things are good. I can feel.
I have taken over 150 different vitamins, herbs, and steroids. By far the best was cortef. It gave me back life, energy, no more brain fog, and helped me sleep and anxiety. Did not help sexually though.
cortef/cortisol and thyroid/t4 working together it sounds logical to me
So you didn’t see much positive progress till after 2 years? What happened after 2 years that turned things around? What did you notice?
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What have you done in order to recover and what have you felt it has helped you the most?
Do you recommended Omega 3 then? Do you still do anything to keep on improving/ feeling better?
I am happy you feel like 90% recovered. I will soon post my history, our are similar. It is nice to hear good news from early 20 ex users who took the drug > 6 months.