Not expecting replies on this but they’d be appreciated as I’m at a very low point and dont know where to turn to. I’ve posted this in PSSD forum too but I’m DESPERATE for hope.
Long story short: F, 27, PSSD since 2014 (150mg Sertraline) and I haven’t had any windows of libido since. Basically complete hyposexuality, haven’t been turned on since I was 21. I am also badly anhedonic and frankly very suicidal.
I hate posting here as I dont want anyone to feel bad over anything I post. I am absolutely sick of my life and how I feel like I live in limbo. I wanted so much to fall in love and I dont see that happening for me at all as I dont have an interest in men anymore and I cant remember the last time I felt good emotions, years maybe.
I’m desperate to get a window so I’m going to try meds again. Not SSRIs, but something. I’m sick of going to doctors who just dismiss this condition though. But I need to be medicated, I’m highly suicidal and I am tired of doctors either 1. not knowing wtf I am talking about or 2. telling me that PSSD is impossible and that I have no sex drive or good emotions because of depression/anxiety.
Has anyone heard of PSSD or PFS rendering someone completely asexual for years with 0 windows somehow ending up getting at least somewhat better? I’m so bitter that this has happened to me. I want so much to be a wife and mother. I just want to know if there is anyone else like this out there as I feel so alone even in the PSSD and PFS community as I have been suffering for most of my 20s and everyone else is getting windows whereas for me my libido is at a constant 0%