The information on the leaflet should be sufficient and fully transparent. None of us should blame ourselves. I level the suffering of myself, of many others and the countless loss of men’s lives firmly at the door of those fuckers at Merck
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Feeling good so far. I enjoy intercourse more than before. Altogether still not recovered. Keeping a stressfree mind is the best medicine for me but it is really hard to maintain.
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Feeling extraordinarily good. Mentaly stable. Did not want to make several posts within a few days but had to mention it.
Still feeling good. I just can’t handle stress. I know if something happens that’s causing me so much stress I will fall back to my depressed status.
btw found the perfect medication for my ED. It includes sildenafile and tadalafile in one pill.
it’s so good to hear that your improvements are holding, I hope you continue to feel better and better 
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Doing really good. Mentally more stable than ever since pfs.
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My current sides that affects me the most:
- collagen loss
- difficulties in building muscles
- libido (sometimes really low)
- sleep issues (waking up at least 5 times per night)
Yesterday I was thinking about a feeling I had the last time where I felt enthusiastic and this kind of pure happiness that keeps me alive and motivates me. I say to myself that it has to do with my age and it’s supposed to feel dull…
Overall I still feel kind of good/okay but it’s missing something
Sorry to hear about your sleep I suffer similar and was fling better before I start my new job but since relapsed. If you can take something like melatonin it’s better to get deep sleep as to promote healing.
Sleep got worse now for a few days since I am stressed again about my ED-Issues. Heard a few songs related to the past me and felt back to old memories were everything was much easier. I thought about past crushes I had and the intense feeling of love and happiness. Pre PFS I was able to feel romantic feelings towards girls I did not even know, just by looking at them. Now I barely feel anything compared to then.
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Sometimes when I am listening to old songs (before PFS) I remember the feeling of enthusiasm I had but unable to feel now. I was remembering the moment I met a girl when I saw her first in the classroom and immediately fell in love with her. Now after PFS almost impossible to even feel something related to that. I can function to a point were nobody would think that I even could have a disease but I have to live a life were I am lying to myself that everything is okay.
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Although I might have been somewhat less affected, I absolutely understand what you’re talking about. Sometimes I try to remember how it actually felt: love, arousal, having fun, having powerful positive emotions. But now it’s all blurry in my mind. The emotions currently accessible to me are way less intense and much more depressive.
I also pretend that I’m living my life as a normal human being, but the very fact of having such sexual dysfunction is a very alienating experience on its own.
I’m sorry that you are going through this too.
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Short update.
Got better:
- do not wake up several times in the night maybe 2-3 times
- mental health (try not to think a lot about PFS but that’s only possible with no severe sides)
- skin slightly better and fresher with the help of new products (but skin still feels like rubber and is very elastic around my face, neck and upper arms)
- got more muscles
Stayed the same:
- libido (i do think about intercourse but it is not arousing as it was before and penetration possible in 99% of times but with viagra, without practically impossible)
Got worse:
- eye sight (blurry vision maybe connected to the use of viagra too)
I can live with my sides a almost “normal” life. Had definitely worse times but the last months were okay.
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I had this issue for a longer time but wanted to ask what you guys think about it: my penis sensation is compared to pre fin extremely different, of course worse. In one part of my penis between tip and shaft I feel much more. The difference is enormous. But on the shaft and tip I cant feel anything I would say like 90% numb. Cant feel coldness or heat. The same goes when I touch it. Can this even improve?
How are you now?