Hey Everybody,
I’m not anymore active on this forum and I won’t be, but I think you would like to hear about the stuff I post here.
In the last half year my pussy centric thinking has returned. My balls remind me every day or other day to jerk off and I feel again a bit forced to watch good looking girls. I want to put mr. willy in their… I can fantasize about sex before going to bed and when waking up. About half year ago it happened only once every week or other week but it was gradually improving and now it’s a daily thing to deal with. I’m still pretty busy with other aspects of my life but a few days ago I started thinking about getting a girlfriend. It would be nice to have someone to cuddle and make love.
For me this was about 5 years off. In the first 3 years I was totally ruined and my condition got just worse and worse. I have been actively taking radical actions only in the last 2 years to take control of my condition. I’m not going to post my story here, you can search the forum if you are interested about it.
I’m not yet 100% as horny as before the drugs but everything is on a pretty good level. Before the drugs I was completely obsessed with pussies and I got a boner in seconds just from hearing others having sex. During sex I ejaculated pretty quickly that was a bad thing, now I have very good control over this.
My sleep is pretty good and refreshing. Even if I eat myself to death before going to bed, I wake up with totally empty stomach and my body feels really refreshed and strong. My body has regained its ability to keep the fat off, when I was ruined I gained fat rapidly.
I don’t have morning woods but instead of that I feel that mr. willy is puffy and something was going on during sleep. If I sleep only 2-3 hours then I often wake up with a half boner. I’m pretty confident in being able to get a boner in a hot situation, especially because the thought of a pussy simply makes me horny. When I’m masturbating my balls take control over my brain pretty quickly, my prostate sensation is there again, and my boner gets almost painfully rock hard in a few minutes. Yesterday after jerking off I had to run down to the shop before it closed so I had to go there with a rock hard boner because it usually takes about 5-10 minutes to go flaccid after an orgasm. Yes, my boner is that good.
Although I give no shit about my hair after this journey, a few of you might be interested in this topic. My hairline is about NW2.5-3 and it has stopped there. It may be a little bit receding very slowly but nothing serious. The drugs have stopped my hair loss and the last time I shedded a noticable amount of hair was when I put my health back on track. Of course it may happen that I start losing it again as my recovery proceeds but I’m not really interested in it. If I lose too much of it then I simply shave it to zero. Don’t hesistate to take serious actions even if it results in hair loss. Being bald is much better than living a shitty life. Being healthy is the most important thing.
For me it took huge effort and willpower but required surprisingly short time to regain an excellent (much better than average) physical condition from a very bad situation. (First with hcg, then water fasting + clean food + trainings.) After that it still took a relatively long time for my sex drive to return. Try to find a similar path for yourself. Get the physical aspects of your body under serious control, kill your time with doing useful things and wait for the rest to happen.
That’s all folks. Good luck for all of you.