Hi Hehehe,
I am sorry this is happening to you, but you have come to the right place. Here we are trying to solve the mystery around persistent side effects after the use of Finasteride, GnRH analogs, anti-depressants, Isotretinoin (Accutane) and other endocrine disruptors. We believe that they have a common mechanism that leads to the same set of persistent side effects in a subset of predisposed patients.
The good news from your story is that your temporary recoveries suggest that we may not be irreversibly damaged and that with proper androgenetic signaling restored we may recover all or most of what we have lost. To get there, we have a lot of work to do. You can do your part by reporting your side effects to the German authorities (https://nebenwirkungen.pei.de/nw/DE/home/home_node.html) to increase awareness and by contributing to our community projects (Important Announcement: Two Community-Led Research Projects - Please Participate).
There is more to come, so it’s worth sticking around. If you feel more comfortable to post in German, there is also a newly introduced German language sub-forum here (https://forum.propeciahelp.com/c/de).
Good luck/viel Glück!